I do not think
my mind will hold
out much longer.
I forget basic
details of conversations. I
walk into the kitchen
and forget my reason
for having walked
into the kitchen. I can
discern now when
people are being
polite by not
mentioning the fact that
it is the third
or fourth time I've
told that story again.
I am thirty-four
years of age.
Thirty-four
years of age. Thirty-
four years
of age.
I love baseball perhaps
now more than
ever before. It
requires no
memory, no cohesive
narrative, each
moment when the
pitcher releases the
ball its own
microcosm—
its own tick
in an atemporal clockwork
flush with gears but
lacking cogs entirely,
a moment savored
and then quickly
forgotten, like
the taste of a
perfectly ripe summer
strawberry, smothered
by the sweltering haze
of a mid-July afternoon.