i want to feel again
i want to be able to write again
i want to put my feelings into words
but whenever I write, there's nothing
and i'm reminded that i don't feel anything anymore

Pen in hand waiting to glide across the lined sheet
and yet no blood is spilling upon the page so I admit defeat.
I am void of prodigious literary expression;
my spark has gone and now I must face temporary repression.

If i could write a short story it would be about the wonders of you and me.

If i could write a novel it would be about all the moments we have shared.

If i could write a poem i would tell you all the things i feel.

But i find that all of these things
Are two beautiful to describe.

So i will keep them in my heart
For the days when i could use a smile.

I write my poetry
about the world around
me and the people too.
But when he comes to
mind the words don't
fall into place like I love
the way they do.
The thoughts come slow
and the words even slower.
He's on my mind and
nothing works. My brain
shuts down, my stomach
tightens, my feet go numb.
When he's on my mind.

I hate this feeling not
knowing what to write,
he's on my mind and I
cant get him out.
Why cant I do this!
It's not hard to write!
Love poems are easy!
So why does this hurt?
Nope!
I cant do this,
he's on my mind
and I cant get him out

-H.R.