please don't
come to me
when you're
feeling lonely
but instead
come to me
when you
feel happy,
alive and free

i'd like to
pay more
attention
to how i
feel than
to what you
want to do
today

i'd like to
pay more
attention
to what i
want to
eat instead
of having
what you
feel like
having

i'd like to
pay more
attention
to the
clothes that
i want to
wear, instead
of pulling on
the ones
you choose
for me

i'd like to
pay more
attention
as i live
and love
with myself
instead of
giving my
best to you
without
thinking about
me

so call me
selfish
if you must
but is it
a crime to
pay attention
to myself?

don't give me
broken pieces
to pick up as
you go because
i'm not a mender
and i can't heal
these scars

maybe
            just
                   maybe,
                                we
                                       will
                                                be.

you're always so close yet so far
i'm tired of bending backwards for you
i'm sick of swimming across to you
i'm frustrated by waiting for you for hours
don't come and find me,
i'm no longer yours

you're here, but not here

lonely yet surrounded