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Jul 2021 · 833
sleepless nights
misha Jul 2021
my body sleeps
for hours and hours

but my mind never sleeps,
not even for a lone minute

it's so hard to escape
the captivity of your own mind.
Nov 2020 · 923
falling
misha Nov 2020
i'm scared
because i'm
falling in love
with you
                       but i don't know
                       if you're going to
                       safeguard my heart
                                                            and i don't know
                                                            if i could make u
                                                            stay forever
                                                                                           oh god,
                                                                                           i really wish
                                                                                           for u to be my
                                                                                           girl for the rest
                                                                                           of my life.
let me love u
Oct 2020 · 1.0k
more questions
misha Oct 2020
do we live for the sake of ourselves
or do we live for the sake of eachother?
hi, haven’t been super active but im going to remedy that!
Aug 2020 · 940
answer me if u dare
misha Aug 2020
why are you so ******* yourself?
the way we're just pushing ourselves to the limit
being our own biggest bully
why do we do that?
i actually was thinking abt this deeply last night and it just bothers me how we are our biggest enemies yet our closest friends
Jul 2020 · 710
i have questions
misha Jul 2020
why do we call it "falling in love?"

perhaps it's in the act of giving oneself up
or maybe it's because you take a leap of faith
or is it because when you fall

        you either get caught
                                  
                             ­              or
                                                   you get hurt?
don't fall in love, it's a trap x
May 2020 · 1.0k
digging graves
misha May 2020
lately i've been feeling stumped
because even my own roots do
not ground me firmly
but they want to
bury me
alive
quarantine hasn't been easy on me. i want out soon.
Apr 2020 · 740
a penny for your thoughts
misha Apr 2020
it's hard loving the same person
that your friend loves

should i betray my friendship
and follow my heart

or

should i betray my heart
and follow my friendship
what do you guys think?
Apr 2020 · 955
slowly losing you
misha Apr 2020
i wish we knew from the start,
if someone was going to leave you in the end

so that i would never get close
                            never would trust
                        & never would love them
i don't want to lose u but if u ghost me then i can't reach you
Apr 2020 · 624
can i unmiss you?
misha Apr 2020
i know it's bad to hold on but i just miss your company.

i don't think i miss you like i used to, maybe it's just the friendship i want now, the conversations we had and how happy i was.

i miss me.
come back soon
Apr 2020 · 1.1k
idk
misha Apr 2020
idk
i promise i don't want to get back with you but at the same time i want to talk to you, to hear you and to spend my time with you. is that alright? or do i sound in love? the scary part is that i don't want to love someone who's going to break me again
he's toxic, i need him out of my system
Apr 2020 · 602
broken homes
misha Apr 2020
what's the point of building friendships if all they do is knock you down?
people are so toxic, you can't even trust anymore
Mar 2020 · 855
six feet
misha Mar 2020
a year ago
i lost you
six feet under

and even a year later
i love you
six feet over
i miss u grandma, i love you so much. thank you for being my grandmother, honestly the best thing you ever did was love us unconditionally despite the communication barrier but i know that even if our tongues did not speak the same languages, our hearts sure did and the love we felt could be translated into any language
misha Mar 2020
hour long calls
hour long messaging
hour long giggles

minutes long stories
minutes long for a few words
minutes long for being scared, afraid and desperate

seconds long for three words
seconds long for saying sorry
seconds long for a bye

and a fraction of a memory
still sorry?
Feb 2020 · 911
falling in & out
misha Feb 2020
falling in love hurts
falling out of love hurts more

but falling in love alone
and falling out of alone,
hurts the most.
i guess this is it lads, after a heartbreak i am back to post as per usual. it was a toxic relationship and im ready to move past it, right?
Dec 2019 · 837
act I
misha Dec 2019
some say that it hurts
when you don't
accept the expectations

but some of them don't
know that it hurts
more knowing
that you'll never
reach them
idk what's going on with life.
Sep 2019 · 718
stuck in 3/4th of a tango
misha Sep 2019
so powerless
.
.
.
we are unable to live
yet we are unable to die
.
.
.
perhaps just like rain
we change forms
.
.
.
gas
.
.
liquid
.
solid
.
.
.
even with the passing of forms,
the humans hearts
still remain heartless
Aug 2019 · 422
can you hear me?
misha Aug 2019
i sat silently in the auditorium
my hands clammed up in a fist
their voices echoed in the room
but none to reach me

i sat scared in the auditorium
they gathered in groups
turned round to stare
and all i could do was look away

i sat idle in the auditorium
they would think that i’m
mute like a ghost, dead or gone
walking right through me

i sat praying in the auditorium
my feet nervously tapping
my voice quivering when
i asked the girl beside me
a simple question,
thank god she answered

i sit alone in the auditorium
this room has held my voice captive
my confidence has been stolen
and yet my heart pounds every
split second but you still
cant hear me?
i moved and im now at a different school in a differently country, I feel so left out so frightened and so alone. i want to go back
Jun 2019 · 853
roses
misha Jun 2019
why do roses die but thorns remain?
Apr 2019 · 524
a thought about humans
misha Apr 2019
we, humans, are so strange-
we fall in love so easily,
we hurt so easily
yet we won’t forgive as easily
Apr 2019 · 595
rebirth of spring
misha Apr 2019
is it cruel that sometimes i am
able to breathe normally,
and to get through
the day without
sobbing when
i think about you?

it's only been a little while
but it seems as if
i've forgotten your
petal soft skin,
always fresh with soap,
your hair neatly
clamped to a side
and,
your aching back which
arches stronger than
any bridge, carrying
all the weight of the
life you lived

those weary eyes,
glossy with tears
when we came to
visit from miles away
only to stay for hours,
with you crying
as you hug us
as we depart
like robots

we could've visited more often,
stayed a little longer,
because now all i can do is
pray in the morning when i wake up,
pray when i come back from school,
pray before going to sleep

i wish that your soft skin
stays gleaming,
i wish that your aching back
is no longer curved like a bangle
but instead straight like a ladder
letting you reach the heavens,
your long hair full of colour,
draping earth

and when i'll see the shadow,
i'd think that's you above me,
when i'll see the rain falling,
i'd think it's you crying
as you miss us,
as you look over us,
as you love us from there,
and when spring comes
the petals dancing in the air,
fragrance from france,
the one that's so expensive
won't even compare to your
scent

please let me shake in your
arms as you rub my back
with the strength of generations

please let me hug you
and cry with you as i leave
you behind

just for a little while
let's be together
in this short
life
not even a month has passed. i still love you, we miss you so much. i hope that you're not suffering in your grave or that you're scared, i hope that perhaps the light from heaven greets your grave, warming you in happiness. please be happy ammi.
Mar 2019 · 766
always with me
misha Mar 2019
i promise that
when the wind blows
i'll think you're there

when the sky cries
i'll think you're there

when the leaves fall
i'll think you're there

every holiday,
every dinner,
every family gathering,
i'll think you're there
i love you ammi and i miss you so much. i hope you're doing alright and that you aren't in pain and that you don't go through the kabr pain.
Mar 2019 · 1.4k
send me a halo
misha Mar 2019
how can my own home feel like jail?

the windows are always open but i
can see the bars that trap me inside
my own mind, hold my lungs tight
to stop me breathing,
there's always fresh air entering
but when it comes near me it becomes
rancid and putrid, choking me
and tearing me up but i will always
end up inhaling the matter or else
i won't survive

the rooms are filled with ornaments
from different countries,
little souvenirs that we were there
but even with the furniture
i feel secluded, my bed is not
only my resting place, but it
sobs as i rest my tired eyes,
hoping that even in this darkness
of my room, where i can hear the
shallow breaths fill the air,
perhaps the light that escapes
between these walls could
guide me and send me a halo

the clothes that hang solitary
waiting to be reached towards,
they only cover me from this
world that i live in,
these clothes do not liberate me
but they protect me from
anything worse than this jail
in which i know i shall rot
ever so slowly but until then
i shall pray that it won't be
due to my sadness or the fact
that i can't stop worrying and
stressing about the future

if only these walls, this jail,
stopped my mind from wandering
into a state of freedom,
aching to be heard,
screaming at whatever chance they have
but this voice will never escape
as i am made of steel,
my bones are my cage and
this body is half-alive

hold-me, could i dare to ask?
hold-me, in this jail as i
fall into deep sleep,
pray that i won't wake up
hold-me as i soften my breath,
i'd finally feel the rain
as it patters onto my face
but i'd look up and see no sky,
no clouds and no heaven
imagining another life isn't that bad
Feb 2019 · 937
ICHOR
misha Feb 2019
they say blood is thicker than water but haven't they heard
of ichor?

ichor;
the deep felling within, when you sense that something may
go wrong but let's set that thought aside because you don't know
what happens when the blood boils of gods and goddesses
or when the hues of gold and silver yearn for solitude as they
transform into something new; more precious, more expensive.
falling from the slick blade of a hero, poison to any mortal. but us-
humans- are wicked. if that blade falls into our palms, we'd corrupt
the world by spilling ichor for our mutual misunderstandings. so
we let ichor fall back into history- a curse for the reader- hoping one day that it'll fall into innocent hands so that once again,
unleashed from it's chains, would come Hade's hounds coming
to get you.
ah sweet greek mythology
Feb 2019 · 449
sleep
misha Feb 2019
we don't even realize
how quick like
a sharp breath,
a lunge in the ocean,
a ***** of a needle,
a shot of lightening,
is how fast our
lives boil with our
deeds

suppose you've done
all that you've wanted,
but are you ready to
go to sleep?
Feb 2019 · 640
buried underneath
misha Feb 2019
perhaps in this life
our soles never touched
the same ground
but the next time
our souls will
i hope everyone's doing alright. it's been long since i've been here
Jan 2019 · 423
to future me
misha Jan 2019
i will love myself forever, i promise.
i love me i love me i love me i love me i love me i love me
Jan 2019 · 285
self therapy
misha Jan 2019
there used to be
a time in which
i didn't pour myself
into my poems
but everything
changed when
i felt my first
betrayal,
sadness
and anxiety

as time went by
i spent countless
hours, focusing on
miniature poems in my
mind and actually
having the courage
to post some of them,
that was the moment
that was worth
living and existing for.

my poems have been my best therapy
i will love myself forever, i promise
misha Dec 2018
if i can't be strong
for myself
then i'd be firm
for my ancestors
who's blood bathes
willingly in my veins

i'd lay down in the
silence just concentrating
on my pulse as a clock
to watch the timeline
of the generations
before me

i'd fall in love in
each hardship,
in each misery
in each downfall
because they made
it through

i carry their courage
and durability
and it runs deep
inside of me

and that's how i
know i can be strong
maybe not for myself
but for them
thank you for making me how i am today, i won't let you down
Dec 2018 · 772
overwhelmed
misha Dec 2018
sometimes
just thinking
how much you
mean to me
is overwhelming

do i mean the same to you?
dear reader, i hope you have an amazing day
Dec 2018 · 647
your walls
misha Dec 2018
i can't climb your walls
anymore so please break
them down
for me.
Dec 2018 · 457
where parallel ends meet
misha Dec 2018
it's been weeks
since we chose
different paths
but i'm hoping
that these
parallel ends
meet once again
i could wait until my next life, if i had to
Nov 2018 · 636
the moon goddess
misha Nov 2018
i'm not the lighthouse
that you visit after
a rough day at sea
i'm not the one who's
shining my light to
direct you in the night
but those waves that hit
are my tears,
i shed in the daylight
cowering in fear
i'm the moon
that's so bright but you
won't be see me
as you're blinded
by the reflection
i'm the one who controls
those waves,
the ones that make you
reach home safely
or the ones
that make you drown
so be careful on that
ship
because the moon
isn't always a goddess
"bad ***** goddess" are the poems that make me feel the best, so empowering.

stay safe everyone!
Nov 2018 · 466
stitching
misha Nov 2018
don't pull me apart at my seams
but instead stitch me stronger with your love
Nov 2018 · 2.0k
please
misha Nov 2018
i don't know
why i still
look at your
horoscope

get out of my head

get out of my head

GET OUT OF MY HEAD

please
Nov 2018 · 357
i lied
misha Nov 2018
"how much do i mean to you?"
you asked that in front of everyone,
acting so full of yourself, brave and proud

and in that split moment my ribs caged
my heart captive, i held my breathe for
a minute, and my heart froze for a second

i took a sharp intake before i spoke those words:
"more than oxygen."

i hope you didn't notice that i lied.
i'm a liar
Nov 2018 · 521
dreaming
misha Nov 2018
they say i dream
too much
but if love's a
dream
then i'd like to
dream forever
Nov 2018 · 443
keep quiet
misha Nov 2018
it's better if
i don't speak
because
whatever words
come out of my
mouth, you'd
still be angry
with me
i won't say anything, next time. sorry
Nov 2018 · 465
you're my fears
misha Nov 2018
i turn a blind eye
to my fears
but when it comes
to you,
i can't help but
stare

i don't know what
it is but there's
something cliche
that captivates me
completely
even if i despise
you more than
anything
i'm not scared anymore
Nov 2018 · 487
have a little time
misha Nov 2018
don't expect
me to echo
your
opinion
because i've
got opinions
of my own
but you're
too busy to listen
don't ask me to speak up, would you like me to tell you to clean your ears and listen up?
Nov 2018 · 120.0k
drunk on you
misha Nov 2018
your name is
forbidden in
my mouth
or in my heart
because when
i think about
you;

i'll cry a little more,
hurt a little stronger
love a little softer
because you no longer
make me feel sober

i'm drunk on the
memory of you
if only i could chase you with pizza but shots don't work like that
Nov 2018 · 400
forces of the heart
misha Nov 2018
how silly it is to say that
i love you from afar
because hearts like
ours never attract
but they can collide
and pause for just
a breathing second
as we get a glimpse
of love for the first time
Nov 2018 · 436
a little hint please
misha Nov 2018
i'll help but you never tell me what's wrong

how about giving me a little hint?
Nov 2018 · 1.2k
cold
misha Nov 2018
feeling so cold,
you said you
want to
overdose
but you
tell nobody
else that you're
on the low

feeling so cold,
you're scared
of being alone
but when was
the last time
you let
someone home?
make some room for me because i'm gonna come in and spread some sunshine
Nov 2018 · 487
get it together, barbie
misha Nov 2018
rub those
tears off
your full on
baked make-up
face,
wipe those mascara
drippings and
fix your lipstick
because i can
see you breaking
even if you hide it
get it together, barbie
don't cover it up, let people know how you feel because your feelings matter as well
Nov 2018 · 308
remember me?
misha Nov 2018
i hope i'm not the only one who thinks about you.
do you even remember me?
Nov 2018 · 566
sad teary smiles
Nov 2018 · 476
a little too sharp
misha Nov 2018
prickly roses
quick to touch

don't you weep
let's keep this a hush

sing my song
when you fall

or else watch
your demons as
they crawl
Nov 2018 · 383
i only want that happiness
misha Nov 2018
please don't
come to me
when you're
feeling lonely
but instead
come to me
when you
feel happy,
alive and free
Nov 2018 · 293
pay attention to me
misha Nov 2018
i'd like to
pay more
attention
to how i
feel than
to what you
want to do
today

i'd like to
pay more
attention
to what i
want to
eat instead
of having
what you
feel like
having

i'd like to
pay more
attention
to the
clothes that
i want to
wear, instead
of pulling on
the ones
you choose
for me

i'd like to
pay more
attention
as i live
and love
with myself
instead of
giving my
best to you
without
thinking about
me

so call me
selfish
if you must
but is it
a crime to
pay attention
to myself?
Nov 2018 · 343
picking up pieces
misha Nov 2018
don't give me
broken pieces
to pick up as
you go because
i'm not a mender
and i can't heal
these scars
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