Stephanie D

Stephanie D May 2019

It gets quite ridiculous
         When you compare
              Our uneven efforts

I thought we could make each other
asymmetrically
happy

I was wrong.
There was no
               thrill
There was
a c t i o n

May 27th, 2019

#illusion #love

Stephanie D May 2019

Flawed

You only want me flawed
To do what you cannot -
Accept your own mess
Love yourself to the best

It's a selfish desire
Dire wolves to be fed
I am earth, not your soul
Never plastic, I'm flesh

Unbound by blinding lights
Strong emotions, distress
Insecurities, true
But no fear I confess

My weak flesh is now new
Muscles, stronger, I said
"Bullet-proof, self-preserved
To feel nothing, I guess"

May 27th, 2019

#honesty #flaws #messy

Stephanie D May 2019

Familiar things

It's so hard to stop
So hard to let go
Of happiness, of joy
But also of the ghosts
That keep
Our sorrows

We find comfort in the familiar darkness

March 27th, 2019

#letgo #sorrow #ghost #darkness

Stephanie D May 2019

hiking

the taste of your grass
the feel of your silk
in my mind, it lasts
my hands on your hips

my mountains are soft
my branches have leaves
they shiver in thoughts
of feeling your bliss

we stand as two rocks
through caverns, we reach
unexplored insides
with fingers and lips

the deeper we go
the warmer we feel
there're no greater joys
than your sounds and your kiss

May 26th, 2019

#warmth #nature #kiss #memories

Stephanie D May 2019

Langue

I write in this imperfect language
Like many others, imperfectly fine
These words are my choice; if empty
They served my heart just right

It's not my first, neither my last
But the one I picked to try
To find myself and then the world
I hope it may survive

The beauty of these phrases
Is the freedom they provide

May 26th, 2019

#writing #language #heart #free #choice #beauty

Stephanie D May 2019

habits

I'm so used to being leftovers
that I wonder if there's anything left

May 26th, 2019

#left #thoughts

Stephanie D May 2019

Bad soil

You taught me how to keep my back straight
How to believe, how to want more

You taught me how to look out for myself
To have faith, to hope
Care
Save
Love

I still try to live by those tenets
Even if they are now meaningless
To endure hunger and thirst
To feed my souls with better seeds

But the soil won’t hold

The wind is refreshing
And, as with everything else
It’s a memory of something
I can’t have

May 26th, 2019

#love #nature #memory #soul #sad