After you and I
This heart won't open up again
Besides, who would ever want someone like me?
The once cheerful songbirds are now chirping a monotonous tone
And the weeds in the garden have overgrown
In this very place, she was left all alone
For he had left and was now in places unknown.
When I say
that you are my Sun,
I don’t mean that you are
Or even the center of my universe.
I simply mean that
I cannot look at you
"Put on your lipstick sweetie, the pink shade will do
Apply some eyeshadow in an enticing hue,
Your hair must be done in a fabulous curl
Then wear these expensive, snow white pearls.
You're now dressed up like a real princess, dear
Smile to the people as they wave and cheer
Keep your regal stance as you walk straight
Hands on your side, you look so great.
Look at the camera and beam cheerfully
Maintain your poise as you talk softly..."
As the light flashes, a thought crossed my mind,
I suddenly want to leave all of these behind
For this is not who I am or what I want to be
And this is not definitely the real me.
Smudged all the lipstick off, dropped the jewelry down
Pulled my hair and tied it in a messy bun
I stood there, chin up and proud
Then I silently walked away from the crowd.
Those sweet white lies
offered a feeling so nice
I drowned, I cannot rise,
and pain was the prize.
Is a pair of spectacles needed
for you to clearly see me,
for you to perceive my worth,
and appreciate my existence?