I feel her love
But it is painful
In every gift I got from her
Something seems to be lost forever
I hope that it can still be found
In distance, melancholia
Fills up each moment of forgiveness
In self blame, doubt, I drown
Each feeling so that I -
Don't feel the pain and cry.
I try to see the positive
But guilt is underneath of it
What have I done?
What have I lost?
I am confused
And barely let her close.
I try. But there's a wall of what? between us,
Like a kaleidoscope, a picture hard to grasp.
It could be fears and anger,
But shame won't let me see beyond them, I confess.
About a close relationship with a loved one, where there was painful past before. About forgiveness and learning to trust. About letting go of the past.