I remember all those times we spent in awkwardness
All those times our hearts became mutual
All those times I snubbed you because I've been effortless
All those times I thought you never cared

It's not easy to be alone in this world if you're not an introvert
My heart had been alone throughout my life
I've been that awkward with girls I never knew
It was all because of you

Now here you are. Spending each day in the darkness
Wearing a fake smile and a fake hapiness
Of all those years you thought I will come someday
And that day you realized I've been gone

My deepest apologies for being irresponsible
These feelings you never share from being in the dark
You've been that scariest kind of girl that I can see
And it's all because of me

Oh how I love Black, my favorite color.
It's my room color and white for the door.
Bits of greys for my windows and my floor.
Let's take it deep within what is stores.

Black and white, perfect combination.
It's what I wear, drawing people's attention.
But I don't care, this is my personality's representation.
Bullies don't give you just hate, they give reactions.

Let's go deeper, make this a whole.
My hindrances never end, just like a burning coal.
Give me a mirror, I only see my reflection of my soul.
Everything on my is broken, with a deteriorating goal.

On a mid-day outdoor, I played a game with my girlfriend
The game is simple. first, I pinned a paper on a tree
If she could get the paper then game will end
But first, she's wrapped around my fingers, she has to set herself free

I said "Come on, take the prize" while she's constricted
She struggles and trying her best to free herself and she did.
She takes the paper and she read it, she looked worried afterwards
She asked me why, I said "I was holding you, but you chose to be free just to take the reward"

She ripped the paper apart and came back to me
She took my hand and wraps herself for me and and cry
And said "Put my heart on your cage and break the key"
The paper says "Goodbye"

I get a glimpse of you everyday,
But only for an hour.
I always wanted to talk to you,
But sometimes I cower.
My day is always complete
Until it is over.
There's nothing fun anymore,
But with you, it's covered.

'til then,
I tried to be bolder.
I tried to be the outgoing  person
Then make you a letter,
My heart skips a beat and gets faster,
As I get closer, it feel like my heart is on fire.
Burning inside from nervousness 'till it gets slower.
Then realize, nothing last forever.
I don't want us to suffer if we lose each other.
I'd rather stay befriends than to lose you for the better.

I've been alone for 16 years, frozen blood from frigid heart for tears..
Still, I'm locked up with this feeling. Wasting my time for something worth waiting

If I tell you that I love you,
Would we still be in touch ?
No, I wouldn't allow myself to,
My love for you is too much.
If I do it anyway,
Would you give me another chance ?
No, you'll tell me to stay,
I already know even at first glance.