The pills remind her of him
His tongue leaves hers with and after taste
She smokes anything that’s laced
Because he can’t be erased
Imprinted on her brain
And all she’s left with is a wine stain on her sheets
And she breaths deep
She loves the way her heart beats
It races fast, and flys
From the poison and lies running through her veins
Because she’s lost without him
She loves to stay high
Because for a bit she forgets why she’s crying
And how it feels to be dying
She forgets about his touch
Because she drinks too much
She craves the taste
And she could so easily overdose on his pretty face

Love is a drug
And she can’t stop

Dear Daddy

i missed the way you would swoop me up off the floor
and I remember when I begged you to stay just a little more

You would cradle me in your arms
And tell me that I was your precious little girl

I remember we would dance and whirl around
And I was the twinkle in your eye

I remember every night with you
And I knew you had no clue
But every time you said I love you
I would hold it close to my chest

I remember how I believed that  you where the best
I was your princess
And you where the king

I remember how you’d sing
And I’d gently fall asleep
And every time you left
I sit on the floor
By the door
And weep
But dear daddy
I should have reminded myself that your love was not mine to keep.

The day after is always so hard

Waiting till the next time I can see you
The next time I can kiss you
And I hope you think about it too
Or if you loose as much sleep as I do over you

I can smell you in my sheets
In everting I do
I can’t stop thinking about you
I wonder what your doing in this hour
Or if your afraid to take a shower
Incase my sent washes away

I think about how we lay
Our body’s mangled and in twined
I think about how you look at me
As if you can see
Something that no one else can

Your kisses where so passionate and kind
As if you didn’t mind
Waiting

I felt so safe in your arms
That I would forget everything
And ever time my phone rings
I hope it’s you waiting on the end of the line
Getting ready to say that you want to be mine

They told you to tiptoe through the tulips
Incase you stand on a bee
And don’t sing songs of madness with the birds
Because it will hurt too much
Don’t laugh to hard
Because you could blacken your lungs with smoke of smiles
Don’t play with the stars
Because people will watch in suspicion
Don’t dance in the rain while the storm passes
Because your muddy feet will rowen the fine floor boards

But why? Why not live and...
Run as fast as you can through the tulips
And while you pass brush them with your delicate fingertips
And take off and fly with the bees
Feel the cool breeze against your face
And let it run through your hair
Visit the beautiful birds
And sing at the top of your lungs in unison
And laugh as loud as you can
And when they hear your stunning laugh
They will smile out of joy
And perhaps we will all smile
And maybe we will all die of blackening to the lungs
But it will be beautiful
Fly even higher into the darkness
And fetch the shimmering stars
And show the constellations what pleasure you get out of dancing carelessly in the rain while the storm passes
Once you are done
Silently tiptoe through your house with your little muddy feet Incase you wake your sleeping parents

And do all the things you dream of
Because they are in the darkness of the night
And you’re busy living in the light

Tell me, I want to know
Tell me about the moments that made your hands shake
Tell me about the first girl that kissed you dizzy
And the first person to make your heart break

Tell me about all the places you want to see
And about your favorite music, color, and flavor of tea

Tell me about all the special things in your life, what you want
And what you wish for in your future wife

Tell me about how you wish you had all the time
And who you want to be from strangers to she-is-mine

Tell me about the goodbyes that hurt the most
About all the achievements you are proud of
And the thing that you love to boast

Tell me
Because out of all the people who come and go
You are still the only one I wish to truly know

I dream about you too much
Sometimes I loose myself in those dreams
I imagine the way you breathe
As you would lay next to me
I dream about
How your smile makes me feel
I dream about
What your voice sounds like
And how your laugh is music too my ears
I dream about
The way you think
And what your eyes see
I dream about
Tracing my fingertips
Along your freckles and marks
But I remind myself
That you wont be there when I wake up
And I guess that's why
I'm so afraid of the dark.