You make it seem like it's a joke
But you never see what happens when we woke

You may never see us cry
But on the inside we ask why

Wonder what would happen if you woke
Feeling like your all alone
Knowing that all that's here is your bone

What would happen if you woke
When on the outside your smiling
But on the inside your dying

What would happen when you woke
Feeling like you want to die
Yet you can never be seen to cry

And what would happen if you woke
Wanting that knife to cut the ends
Unable to wait to see what afterlife sends

But what happens if you woke
And all your life broke apart
And you didn't get a chance to restart

Yet what would happen if you work
And your eyes are stirred and dry
Yet all you want to do is cry

And what would happen if you woke
Knowing that all you know is despair
Yet everyone else seems to not care

Wondering what would happen if you woke
When the world seems to end and you are nothing
And when everybody looks at you and murmurs something

What would happen if you woke
When no one seems to give a ****
And all you ever seem to do is be hit

Think what would happen if you woke
When the lights were out and you felt deeper
Then it seems as it ends you see the reaper

And what would happen if you woke
With the uncontrollable urge to self-destruct
And your emotions seem to finally erupt

What would happen if you woke
And all at once everything seems lost
And you decide it's worth the cost

Wondering what would happen if you woke
Wanting all this suffering to completely end
And have the fields of time shift and bend

Or what would happen if you woke
Unable to breathe barely alive with a knife
Just knowing this is the end of your life

What would happen if you woke
Feeling like your puny little heart is broken
And you want your final words to be spoken

And what would happen if you woke
With the water spilling down your throat
You realize you have been smote

Yet what would happen if you woke
Feeling like no one would care if you passed
At least you would be free at last

So what would happen if you woke
Feeling winters cold embrace
While you feel you lost the race

And what would happen if you woke
When all the happiness you have known
Begins to unfold and becomes a groan

What would happen if you woke
With your face red and cheeks soaked
And you wish you had finally croaked

So what would happen if you woke
And all the love and light faded from within
So that all that was left was to turn to sin

Wondering what would happen if you woke
With your heart strings on the very last line
And you were messed up and broken with a sign

And what would happen if you woke
Feeling like a ****** failure of a person
And on top of it your family made it worsen

What would happen if you woke
And your destiny became to die
Your mind would yell and cry cry cry

And what would happen if you woke
If the sky's weren't blue
And only grey surrounding you

What would happen if you woke
When the sky was dark and grey
And all you feel is agony and decay

Or what would happen if you woke
When the sky was near fire
And your neck is hanging by a wire

What would happen if you woke
And the whole world was a smokey mess
And all you think is I want this less

The things we go through aren't a joke
So just imagine if you woke

i woke up in a tear stained lace dress black boots
still drunk with bruised wrists i woke up delicate
feeling hallow i woke up hopeless & next to a
man much older than me no longer innocent
haunted by what he had done still believing he
loved me i woke up ******* manic on a monday
morning to run barefoot & say goodbye to my
friend for the last time & to get high before college
or school but i cant remember which i woke up
from a bittersweet dream where an awful friend
held me under the flowers to say he was sorry for
the things he couldnt remember but i would never
forget & he told me he was crueler than i can
imagine i woke up wishing it was a real apology i
woke up sick in bed barely breathing from too
many pills i woke up devastated to still be alive i
woke up in a cheap hotel room with a boy i met
once at a gig when we had nothing left to give i
woke up faded on medication with my friends
hand up my skirt & i had made sure to wear my
nicest underwear ivory silk since i knew it would
happen again & woke up crying i woke up
desperate i woke up idyllically lonely under death
in the stars i woke up numb & made of porcelain i
woke up not entirely here & woke up bleeding &
woke up grieving. i woke up in everlasting fear

im not entirely sure if i ever woke up this morning

Today,
I woke up,
And for the first time since March,
I have contemplated the pros and cons
Of ending my life.

Today,
I woke up,
And realized that there are parts of this world,
People in this world,
That would have been and would still be
Better off without me.

Today,
I woke up,
And no snoring puppy,
No purring cat,
No cawing crow
Could penetrate the deafening silence
That has taken my soul hostage.

Today,
I woke up,
And I realized that there are things you've never seen
That I wish I had never seen.

Today,
I woke up,
And thought of all the ways
I am not enough.

Today,
I woke up,
And gave names to all my failures and faults.

Today,
I woke up,
And saw how far I still have to go.

But

Today,
I woke up,
And for the first time in my life I realized
That I am worth something.
That I don't deserve to feel this way.
That there is no sin I have commited that is so great
To earn the ire of a world that never loved me.

Today,
I woke up,
And realized that there are people whose hands I will never hold again,
But the shade of their eyes
And the spark in their smile,
Will forever be held in my heart,
Wherever they may be,
Whoever's hands they may be holding
Or whoever sparks their smile next.

Today,
I woke up,
And I forced myself to move
And I forced myself to shower
And I forced myself to take my pills and drink some water
And start my day.
I forced myself to listen to music that doesn't make me want to rip my heart out.

Today,
I woke up,
And I knew in my bones that
I am more than my past,
And I am more than my pain,
And I am more than anyone ever expected me to become.

Today,
I woke up,
And looked deep into my brown eyes,
And counted every streak of yellow, every flare of red, every speck of black.
I took in a deep breath and reminded myself
That I am a work in progress,
But I am coming along so beautifully.

Today,
I woke up,
And remembered that the most important thing
About being strong,
Is surviving.
I remembered that I have crossed through hell and high water
And back again
And my skin is still mine,
And my bones are still mine,
No matter who has tried to take me from myself,
That I am still my own, if nothing else.

I remembered that the strongest and most important thing I can do
Is walk right by death,
And look my demons straight in the eye and say:

*"Today, I woke up."

are we really woke as much as we all claim to be?
or are we woke to ease our minds, which ain't reality?

of course we've signaled heavy change, i won't deny that's true
but let me have your ear for now, give you another view

are you really woke because you post a rant on twitter,
but bop to Chris Brown's music even tho we know he hit her?

are you really woke cause you were born into the slums,
but if you make it out,
you forget where you are from?

are you really woke because you claim to love black hair?
but only like the softer textures, is that really fair?

are you really woke 'cause you admire that 4c?
but put down girls who have relaxers, wigs, or wear a weave?

are you really woke because you claim to love all people,
but if ya boy is gay you will denounce him at the steeple?

are you really woke because you say you know what's right,
but ostracize your fellow blacks,
simply cause "they talk white?"

are you really woke because you claim to love all colors,
but date a darker women? yikes! you'd rather find another

are you really woke because you claim you've got insight,
but if i am depressed, you say that mess is for the whites?

i bring up all these issues not because i hate my own

i bring up all these issues just because they're never shown

and if we are to grow and prosper,
thrive and shed our past,
we need to have these conversations,

                                                 ­                                make sure that they last

woke up this morning and my covers were damp with sweat
But I woke up…
I woke up this morning with absolutely, positively unequivocally…no regret
Because… “I woke up”
It might sound odd but I thanked god with much respect
For that pain in my shoulder, for being another day older
Because he hadn’t finished me yet
I woke up this morning
To give for I had been blessed
I woke up this morning to live and to forgive
my debtors their collectors and my all of my debt
I woke up this morning and I was totally impressed
God had done it again, he relieved my stress
And in the process forgave my sins
I woke up, I sat up, I got up and I can’t even pretend
That it was anybody or anything other than god
That touched my heart my friend
I woke up…

Samuel Bivins

I woke up in a good mood
a strange occurrence for me
something I only experience
once in a blue moon
or however that expression goes.

I woke up in a good mood
I felt alive for the first time in a long time
I smiled, laughed, joked
but this time the smile was real
and I looked forward to the rest of the day.

I woke up in a good mood
and everything was fine
until it was all crashing down again
a smile faltered, a laugh stifled, a joke lost
and suddenly my mood wasn't so great.

I woke up in a good mood
I promise that just a few hours ago
I was doing fine
better than I had been in a long time
and to say I don't know what happened would be a lie.

I woke up in a good mood
and I don't want to point fingers
but if I wanted to I could
I know whose at fault
and as much as I want to say it was me, it wasn't.

I woke up in a good mood
or at least I think I did
but maybe it was just another mirage
a sliver of false hope
that only lasted for a few hours.

I woke up in a good mood
but I don't think I will tomorrow
or the day after that
maybe never again
but I guess that's not really up to me.