All my friends are fictional. Anyone who can come close to understanding me is black ink on paper...or, I suppose, a screen. The words seem to be extracted from my own mind, and in some sense, they are, or at least the meaning I've given to them. I think the author and I would get along, but of course, I'll never know. Provoke the melancholy, poke the sleeping bear. Look up into the air and wonder "Why?". "Why everything? Why anything? Why do I keep asking why? Why do I waste my time with empty questions?". Some of my friends are sound waves. I think I would get along with the vocalist, or even, the guitarist. Not the drummer though. Never got along with drummers too well. I listen, as they speak to me in a foreign, yet, familiar language. A sort of tounges, a melodic pig-latin. A nearly dying, or, freshly dead language. A corpse comprised of chords. I think, "They must be just like me. They understand how asinine of an existence us humans have". But, I'll never really know. A painting or a picture that I often let my eyes visit is my longest, dearest, friend. With strokes and lines in colors that surround me and embrace me with their vivid visual prowess as a sort of pet. A silent friend. A friend whose company alone is enough to warm me. And I think, "Wow, I wish I could make things like that. I wish I could speak without words and without fear". And then I meet the artist, or at least, read his or her statement, and realize that the speech intended to be delivered was something else entirely, and usually not achieved without enduring his or her own self-projected labrynth filled with pits of fear and dead-ends. And I realize that I can make things like that, that ultimately. I just did. By creating the meaning that I thought was their intention, I drew my own maze, all that's missing, is the courage to endure it. And I think, "Wow, what a lonely sad soul that artist must be. No one will understand what they are trying to say the first time around. They will constantly be frustrated with the mundane experience of incessantly repeating themselves. They will make enemies out of the very things they once loved. They will isolate themselves from those who may have given them everything they wanted."