Maybe its true,
that you sure did fall for me
but all you saw was lust
instead of  trust

There's a certain beauty in the chaos of us,
Its a strange potent mix of fear and lust,
You lied when you said you were incapable of love,
Now every moment is captured to the surface of your mind they shove,
You tell yourself that my smile no longer fazes you,
But the steam rising from your skin after my touch says that's not true,
I enjoy the games we play every night  between our thighs ,
I study you biting my lip in  anticipation of the next possible high,
In an attempt to regain my sanity I push you away,
I know its usually in vain because you pull me in deeper the next day,
You fingers wrapped around my hair forcing me to submit to the chaos with a kiss,
As you push me to the bed my body tingles with insurmountable  bliss,
I look into your eyes holding you intense gaze as you roughly enter me,
The end to this merry go round on my back after each wave of pleasure  is hard to see,
Tomorrow Ill focus on my escape but in this moment I think Ill let the chaos be,

in between all my uncertainties,
I'm almost sure about one thing
but I'm going back and forth between
a plan for my body and a plan for my soul
I'm beginning to lose sense of what's right
and starting to feel like it's wrong...
all wrong...
but how can a path so tempting be the same
path that would lead me to your mountain
of destruction and chaos
of beauty and delight

in between all my uncertainties,
I'm almost sure it feels right with you...

Let me tell you something
from my sinful dream.
They were just buttons,that's what it would seem.
Blue and white, made a good team.
so small with a alluring sheen
like an evil eye resisting my scheme.
There they were on my coveted being.

In my dream they fly across the hall
when I rip them all
My fingers trail through his chest
As my lips do the rest.

Here I'm glued to my seat
trailing back, counting each heart beat.
I wonder what I would dream next?
will I surrender to my lust with my very best?

I shudder at the thought.
By taking deep breaths, I try to sort.
Here I was sure to resist
But my heart craved to persist

There they are my Sapphire, my desire
Mocking me as they leave. I retire.