When you laugh
at me.
It's like you're
telling me
that I'm a
walking joke.

But somehow
I'm okay
with that

We're like clouds
Always close but
normally too far away.

We're like animals
in different categories.
You're a feline while
I'm a fish.

You say it's written all over me.
From the way I speak
to the way I dress.
I'm innocent and you find it
pathetic like you find a fish.

You are a razor.
Your words
cut me so
deep.

You are an
addiction
You keep me
on my
feet.

You are a
monster that
I can't help
but love.

My mother warned me about love when I was younger.
She told me that true love comes when you're older.
I didn't believe her because I thought that I was in love.
I thought that he was the one and that he would always
love me.

Now here we are three years later and I don't know my
emotions.
One moment he is this beautiful human being
And the next moment he's tearing me apart with his words.
He doesn't love me and I don't think I love him.
It's a battle between us, trying to be friends and then pushing
the other one away out of fear of falling again.

He doesn't know about the love letters that I write in my mind.
He'll never know about the countless texts I nearly sent him.
And I sure as hell know that he will never like me again
so why do I keep liking him?

Look at me
I SAID LOOK AT ME.
I want you to remember
every detail to my quite round face.
I want you to see
the glimmer in my eyes
as I tell you about a song I'm writing.
I want you to study
how your shirt looks on me,
and how tiny it makes me.
I want you to stay,
but if you're going to leave then
remember me.
I need you to remember me even if it kills
you and me.