A mind filled with clear thoughts
Until the thick black fog came

And with the fog there came a depression,
And with the depression came the monsters

Monsters like:
Loneliness, insecurity, fear, tiredness, worthless
Pain, powerless, desire and many more.

While the fog cleared and the thoughts where getting clearer
I could count the many scars hidden in my mind
Big and small.

Thinking everything was finally fine.
No more pain, no more fogged up thoughts.

But while the fog had cleared away,
the monsters didn’t go.
Mostly they where gone, but some where still hiding
Waiting for my guard to drop down

To attack me in the middle of the night
or on the corner of the street

Just waiting for a moment of weakness
Waiting to attack and make my life hell again.

That time,
You couldn’t smile,
Nor could feel any joy

That time,
You felt like you were always alone,
even when you would be surrounded

That time,
You were too scared to sleep,
for the nightmares that were waiting for you

That time,
You could feel the monster
and hear them whisper in you ear

That time,
You wanted to die,
but you held on/

That time,
It never ended
I just got better in hiding it