Secret lovers... that's what we are,
  but that's what she was too to you.
     Cuddling, cradling, caressing me
        In your sheets I would lie still
                     And just be.
A phone call changed it all.
   After that you were no longer,
     who you wanted me to think
                      you were.
The
  man behind
      the lies was
         just a devil in
             disguise.

There have been others
but not quite like you.
From the first time
I saw you from afar
I knew we had a
connection.
We played a short game
of cat and mouse.
Then one day you called a
truse.
Our energies were
something greater than
you and me...
Synergy.  
Attracted like magnets
addicted like a bad habit.
I had to have you
just wanted to call
you my boo.
Late night secrets we shared
wishes of being in each other's
bed.
We were...
Connecting.
Afters hours, days,
and months suddenly
you changed our course.
No warning.
Left me figuring out how to sail
without a paddle.
You came in my life and
just rattled
my whole being.
You up and left
but didn't leave money
on the stand.
I'm confused.
I wish I knew
I wish I saw
you better from a far.
My glasses were never on
so I guess the image I had
of you was mighty fuzzy.
Had me about to change
my life and beliefs.
But I
thank you...
For showing
me how to be wise.
How to stay out of
international waters.
I'll stick to the rivers
and lakes that I'm used to.
Funny thing about Roses;
they're deceitful.
From a far they're beautiful,
colorful and just something
you wanna pick up.
But they don't really smell
that good and you gotta
be careful... you might just get
stuck if you bother to touch.

I let you in
when I should've
retreated.
You advanced while
I let things pass.
Now I'm sitting here
with a face swollen
of tears.
You said you were
competitive...
Did you win the game
of who could hurt who
the most?
Nevermind,
I'll just declare you
the winner.

Sunshine, sun bright,
sun shine on me make
me his sun ray.
Sun burn, sun turn
sun guide me to the light.
Its simple. The greens are greens the
the blues are blues isn’t evident
that it’s you who I choose?
Outdoors with one, the one, without one
I am none.

When life gets hard
and I need an escape,
I just go out and
find me a date.

To ease the pain
and run away
I get on my  back
and just lay.

Tall, short, heavy, thin
nothing matters when I'm
escaping what's within.

Too many things going on
in my head,
call me a THOT
but for the night
all I want is you
in my bed.

Or I can be in yours,
but don't call me your girl
just sssshhhh play in curls.

When I moan and shout
its me releasing all the
pain and doubt.
So the last thing I want
is for you to cover my mouth.

Don't muffle me
I do that enough to myself
all I wanna do is hear
the sound of your belt.

When your pants hit the ground
I know its going down.
But don't worry about that,
I'll go first.
Let me **** you like I love you,
let me **** you like I want you,
I'll **** you like I'll love
to never have you leave.

Bets believe its not you I want
but rather the thing
that pulsates and jumps
right between your legs.

Don't come yet
I'm not ready
don't make me beg.

As soon as you bust
then I know it's time
That I must get back
to my reality.

But I rather not be,
I like my sexcapes
they're how I keep my sanity.