Deceived to think I was living in heaven when it merely turned out to be hell
Discovered the devil had made a home of you, planting seeds in your darkest places
Who knew those seeds would grow into trees and root themselves deep within your veins  branching out towards everyone around you
I remember a time your knuckles implanted the seeds in me while your neglect of 3 words helped them to grow.
I tried for so long to get the seeds out, plowing my skin with a razor
Desperately trying to unearth them from my veins
But these seeds aren't going anywhere, they've made a garden out of me and they'll grow out of my bones when I finally dig to deep

my body rejects milk
I wish it rejected
your lies

Just breathe
If you can't do anything else
Just breathe
Even if I have to do it for you
Just breathe

dear little one
today me and your momma
heard your heart beats for the first time
164 beats per minute pulsating to pump
life into you.

I have yet to see your face, but I want you to know
I love you.  My heart beats to the rhythm of life like yours.
Thank you for coming into my life.

maybe I'll write a poem today
I've usually got something to say,
"it's a bottle of gin"
or "it's the tip of a pin"

but maybe today
I don't have something to say
nothing to share
no forced care

I don't have something to say
maybe next tuesday

He said that I looked
Pretty, as a compliment
But it made me doubt;
I felt that he shouldn't have
It made me feel insecure.

I saw,
a man in a wheelchair,
carrying,
a stepladder.

You were a whispered word
I wished I'd never heard.

I love him.
But secretly I adore you.

We are different.
But you and me are parallels.

He is complex
But you just understand.

He is all style
But you are substance.

He is all facts
But you are creative.

I don't know what do to.
But I know I'm lying.