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I told you I would no longer write for you —
That I won’t hide it in series of poetry anymore.
I was old enough
And I know it’s no longer trendy
I write you letters but I don’t send it anyways.

I wanna tell you how much I cared
To let you go as God says so
At first, I was so scared losing you
As if you were “mine”
Though I never had this “thing” with you.

Honestly, I was left with no choice at all —
I thought you’ll wait for me
Just like what you’ve promised.
But maybe words were just empty words.

Hey, I’m sorry that you got tired of me
I was crazy to let you go without even confessing.
You’re too early and I was too late
But it’s kinda unfair
Coz I believed everything you said.

I know I hurt you too
Many times, you told me you’re no longer at peace.
I hated myself for hurting you
But I have to let myself heal and bloom once again.

The connection I had with you was different
I thought I’m already “home” when I’m with you.
But I never had the chance to cherish everything…
It was the last time, but I haven’t said anything.

The pain within me was more than my emotions,
You’re not just a piece of me
But being with you for a short span
Was like staying where I want to be.

I had so many questions in my head —
But the answer I get was you moved on already.
Seeing you around makes me forgive you
And leads me to forgive myself too.

I ain’t perfect —
But this connection has lapsed
And I have to leave this page.

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Ako’y nilaban Mo —
Buhay ang alay Mo
Walang kapantay,
Ganyan ang pag-ibig Mo.

Saan ko man hanapin,
Saan ko man hagilapin,
Dalışay ang Iyong pagsinta
Tanging Ikaw ang hanap ng aking mga mata.

Puso ko’y Iyong nabihag
Nabihag ng Iyong Kadakilaan
Pagsamba ko’y abot langit
Ikaw at Ikaw pa rin ang sambit.

Ano pa nga bang hahanapin?
Ako’y Iyong-iyo, Sa’yo ang pag-ibig ko.
Kanino pa nga ba tatakbo?
Oras ay ‘di na hihinto, Sa’yo pa rin ang kapit ko.