It’s curve doesn’t shape my face
Neither the shimmer
Of all pushin’ and pullin’ whiten teeth;
It doesn’t make sense at all
When its heir and recipient
Mirrors only his very own aggravation.

I don’t think wearing classy stuff
Would make me lighten the day
Neither would arrogance and conceit
Put me in the cream of the top,
For at the end, I may simply slip away.

There were invisible wires
Bonding my muscles and soul
And then, my heart takes it flight
To the eternal embrace of my Father
Snatchin’ me away from the world’s inner core.

I wonder how the rooster left its beloved hen
His throat became anxious of the melted-rough thud
And how our pet Doggy run, not in the race
But from the sadden sun
Even he’s terrified by the minority of the roads.

I’m not lying on my bed for hours
Not even bringing idleness with my friend, Day
But found the words uttered:
For this is my day.

Thanksgiving overflows in me
My vocabulary was bashing with its own
For it’s earthly, but the Heaven shouts the greatest glory
It grants me with the heart’s purity and simplicity
With floating words of Truth and Life,
Without any defamation
That could re-incarcerate my so-human thoughts.

If I were a building,
Would my facade brag my interior?
Would people be drawn to the Designer?
For words will not come to life
If I were simply somethin’
That was just an edifice, yet has not been edified.

I, then, am human being
With the nature of humankind
Resisting the enticement of the flesh.

But if I’m to put that smirk back on my features,
Would it be my asset to talk big?
Of how the Giver has been good to me.
For if I’d see Eve face to face,
Would I glimpse only her impurities and be contaminated?
Or would the inner alteration
Widen its curve and spring up the spirit and the soul.

(5/17/14 @xirlleelang)

(1:30 AM/ Brownout)

Ang alab Mo’y minsang inalay sa’kin
Syang naging mitsa ng pagkandirit ng himagsikan.

Ako’y nakakapaso
Magbibigay-liwanag sa madilim na kinagisnan,
Sa apat na sulok ng silid-aralan,
Sa lipunang may mabigat na ginagampanan
Tangan ang alab na umalarma sa pagkatao.

Nilisan ko ang liwanag
Kung saan akala ko’y dapat na maging kasanayan.
Ako’y Iyong tinubos
Sa mapanghusgang lipunan
May tatak sa noo, syang bukambibig ng madla
Salamat, nang ako’y maging pag-aari Mo
Nang ako’y pagharian Mo.

Gamitin Mo ako,
Pagkat ang liwanag, ang katuturan
Kailanma’y hindi mapupunan ng anumang salita
Nang sinuman..
Kung ang alab ay hindi Ikaw ang sentro
At kung ang lakas ay hindi mula Sayo.

Sukat ang buhay ko
Bawat luha ko, akala ko’y walang silbi’t walang kwenta
Ngunit iniipon Mo pala ang bawat butil nito
Minsan pala’y nakapapaso rin ito
Isalin **** muli, buohin Mo’t ihulma ang pagkatao.

Sayang..
Kung ang ilaw ay nakakahon
Kung ang sisidlan ko’y hindi ko lilisanin
Kung ang sarili’y hindi kikitilin
Nang magkaroon ng pangalawang buhay.

May ilang gagambala
Mga insektong hindi alam kung saan nagmula
Mamumuhunan sila’t magiging igno sa liwanag
At kung di lalakas ang alab,
Ako pala’y matutupok.

At sa hanging iihip,
Kung wala ang mainit na mga kamay
Na siyang yayakap at hahagkan sa akin
Ako’y maagang mahihimlay,
Mawawalang saysay ang pagkatubos sa akin.

Ngunit ang alab na ito’y
Kitilin man: kusa man at sa walang dahilan
Maari pang mabuhay, sa ikalawang pagkakataon
Sisindihang muli,
Luluha sa hapdi’t kirot ng kahapon
Ngunit ang bukas ay may kasiguraduhan
Na ang tatahakin ay hindi na tulad nang ngayon.

Binibilang na ang oras
Bawat minuto’t segundo
Maaring mapagal at maagang tamlayin,
Kung saan saksi ang kadiliman sa liwanag na taglay.

Ngunit bago maupos,
Ako’y may aabutin
Bawat sulok ay dadampian ng buhay
At magmamarka sa bawat haligi
Na kahit sa dilim, mayroong palang pag-asa.

(5/13/14 @xirlleelang)

(5/11/14 – 12:47 am/ Brownout)

I’m the li’l twinkling star
The nursery rhymes chant who I am
To where I’ve heard what their inklings are
And how they plainly wonder what I really am.

Today, I saw the multitudes of stars
Some shone, some have not
At this hour, some rage their trumpets
While others wear their Harry-inspired Invisible Cloaks.

I’ve watched them,
But they don’t grow fainter
They form constellations
Together, they bring out assorted emblems.

I asked, “Why am I alone?”
And “Why I can’t be joined with others?”
“Why I don’t need to conform?”

There were bags of issues
Emulating the others out there –
In the cosmic galaxy, the drudgery darkness
To where depth cannot be measured at all.

You faced me and told me
I was born for something
Maybe not for my delicate-reverie
But You moved me from where I am
To learn strength and endurance when I’m all alone.

I will then outshine, I will be known
My future tells me so
Not because of the light I’ll make
But because of what You’ve made me for.

There’s no one like You
For in my darkest hours, I still see You
Your glory has captured my thoughts.

You are the Moon in my eyes,
The only Moon that showed me
What it’s like to be in the light.

The dimness in me
Was brought out of me
And You then, are proof that Day exist.

The Great Sun will rise again
Oh, the Light, I can’t see it plainly
I’ll be blind if I’ll ever try looking at His rays
Yet, I know how marvellous He was
How perfect He was
For He is incomparable, beyond words.

You, my Moon, oh Jesus Christ
Because of You, I learned to value the dark
When I’m in it, I could view more of You –
Your fullness and how dark can’t ever obscure You.
You’ve also taught me the Half, the Crescent too
Then, glory by glory
I made known of You.

I will not fear
For even the clouds hinder us
I know, You’re still there;
I know I’ll see You again.

Even during the storms, You watch me
You bring light continually
You give hope to the universe
Speaking life wherever I go.

And just when I look at You
I know, that I, the li’l twinkling star
Will prolong my glistening
And You, on the other hand
Shall be reigning forever.

(5/12/14 @xirlleelang)

Dear lover,
You will be my future
And years from now,
You’ll walk with me in the altar
We’ll face each other
And utter promises of love.

Red rose petals
Shall groove in the humid air
Together, we’ll surpass every trial
Together, we’ll be spiritually fit.

I believe in true love
And that I will wait for you
For I know God is still making you firm
With faith like a rock
And deeper foundation upon Him.

We shall run and finish the race
We shall balance the taste of our love
And He shall reign our relationship
He shall be the center of it all.

I will love you forever
My trust will be pure
May the Lord bless both of us
That our imperfections would be set aside
And that His love shall abound.

I will support and held your hand
That I may help you be mature
May He be our encourager
May He fix our eyes upon Him
That we may serve Him well.

(5/1/14 @xirlleelang)

Kinabahan akong bigla
Sa isang basong tubig at kapsula.

May takot, may hikbi
Pagkat sa paglunok
May gawad na pighati ng kahapon.

Nilisan ko na iyon
Ikinubli na ang kahapon
Sa estanteng kayrupok
Malay ko ba,
Nagbabalik-tanaw din.

(5/1/14 @xirlleelang)

Guarded by my self destruction
I tend to fall apart
A hidden seed of imperfection
Lies deep within my heart.

Surrounded by my wants and needs
I know not where to turn
I follow while my conscience leads
But still I never learn.

A broken stranger, lost in time
Not knowing right from wrong
Caring too much, my only crime
I’ve called this love too long.

The words get harder everyday
It’s time for this to end
But I’ve loved too hard to hear you say
That I’m nothing but a friend.

(4/10/14 @xirlleelang)

“The memories I lived out. The dreams I haven’t give up on. The life I live now.”

The memories,
The dreams
Spinning rings
Silver and gold
Those flashy things.

I’d remember the old gowns and caps
The attire of the achiever
I survived the traps
And the grand deceiver.

Graduation
Here I am
Wearing the black robe
Too perfect with imperfections.

I’m ready
To face the world
The adversities of life
With the armour
Of practice, of knowledge, and courage.

I’m ready to stand out
To do great things, to do my own
To be not just a labelled “college graduate,”
But focus on the application.

(3/21/14 @xirlleelang)