That one subject that always appears to be next
That one subject that always has me stuck trying to find his X
The reason she left I don't know Y
But I have feeling she's never coming back to your circle of Pi
Accept the fact that she's gone subtracted from the equation
Because the only person who can find her is a typical smart Asian
I'm sorry bro but your plans to see The Matrix have been cancelled
We've all tried to track her down but that journey's been dismantled
It's a big loss for you since you added yourself to the wrong path
Now your X is gone my dear friend Math

I was the loneliest child in the class
My heart was ready to break and shatter into a million pieces like glass
Depression was the only thing I thought I had
I was just a mistake, a wish gone bad
My life was a wreck, you could call me the titanic
I heard too many voices got lost in the sound, I was nowhere near tympanic
They put me below them all, I was hiding beneath the earth
I thought my life didn't have any worth
My heart was nothing but a cave a hollow trench just wasn't the same
My friends abandoned me, when they were around me they were ashamed
I couldn't take all the pain I just wanted to escape and die
I only listened to suicide, and I believed every lie
They told me the negatives about myself
They were parasites lowering my health
As the future came nearer my will grew stronger
I realized I had to let go of the pain I couldn't carry it any longer
So I decided to put a new lock on my life and get a new code
The only problem was I still found those bumps in the road
I thought it was all gone but each one kept coming back
I thought I had met the met one but it was betrayal and zero trust so I had to accept the fact
All those painful events in my life torn my skin apart like a dog's mange
But November 6th 2015 was the turning point in my life the day it all changed
I came into in the light and the darkness was defeated
The devil use up all his tricks on me they were depleted
I had God by my side and I was following his plan
My mother gave her testimony and I found a girl that I think can help me take stand
I'm glad the suicide left and i'm glad the devil quit
Because this is the life I wouldn't give anything for because its just the perfect fit
I love who I am and my life's more than pleasant
This is how my life was over the years from Past To Present

I might be young right now, but I've experienced so much pain
There's no happiness in me, that emotion's been restrained
My life's been a mess ever since the day I was born
I've been so defenseless, I've been a ram without the horns
They tried to cut me down, but I tried to shine my brightest
And it's been so many years that I've been trying to fight this
Undying sadness, this feeling of being alone
Wherever I tried to run I couldn't find my true home
There's been a broken heart living inside me for so many years
I still sit here thinking about it trying to fight back the tears
Suicide was my only thought it seemed like my best friend
But I asked myself, is this how I want it all to end
I kept on fighting and pushing myself to the limit
I was on a lonely path and I was in it to win it
I've endured so much pain and I still do now
People still ask me "You've gotten this far? How?"
I'm still on a quest to restore this broken heart
Now I have people with me, my loneliness doesn't have to restart
The journey's been long, but I'm still facing strife
But now I challenge you to live better, this is only my life

Her name is unspoken for I cannot tell you who
It started as a liking and then it grew
The closer we got the more serious I became
There is nothing that can blow out this candle or flame
I love her to death, she is my all
I don't care, for her I'll take as many falls
No one will keep me away from her and that is the truth
I want her to be my home run and I'll be Babe Ruth
The compassion I feel is unlike no other
I hope she doesn't see me as her brother
I really want to tell her but its so hard
I don't wanna slip up and stand off guard
If she doesn't say yes I'll feel so lonely
Because she is my real one and only

Sometimes you don't realize life is one big cycle
But then you end up on an endless merry go round
You try to escape to a land of freedom
The ride is to fast for you to jump away
You ask yourself is it possible to choose another path
Yet the world just sits there and laugh
Many people get stuck on the merry go round
Some don't even realize it
96% of the world can't control it because its to late
Some people start out early
And they're able to create their own path
No matter how many bumps and dents there is
They make that life commitment
No matter how hard it seems to follow
Most people just take the easy path
And get stuck on and endless cycle
Others go on the open bumpy road where they can just keep pedaling

Every time I see her I can't stop thinking about her
I think to myself when will I begin my life with her
Her skin so smooth and the beauty of her face
Each time I see her the deeper I embrace
This warm feeling, stirring up on my insides
As if my heart and affection were about to collide
One day I wonder when shall I go up to her and confide
My emotions, overflowing like a high tide
She brings joy and happiness into my life
I think of her as my future wife
My emotions becoming so belligerent
My mind telling me its the time you have enough confidence
I feel so ravenous wanting to know more
About the wonderful young lady I want to explore
That's it, I cannot wait much longer
My confidence, getting even stronger
As she walks my way, her smile brighter than the sun
Iv'e truly realized that she is The One

We think there is no purpose for us
So many of our hearts seem porous
We travel life wondering what did I achieve
Walking without the power to believe
Thinking there is no reason to be here
Thinking that nobody will care
But then you realize it all
Life's not about how much things you can catch in your trawl
Some walk a righteous path well deserved
So many options to choose so many items to observe
Instead of feeling like life left us so deprived
Many wake up in the morning happy to be alive
We make the most of our lives
Awaiting each day that arrives
Blissfully with it's own treasures to chase after
Bringing about joy and laughter
So really why let life make you feel depressed
When you'd rather think of all the reasons
Why life makes you feel so blessed

We live out each day
putting on fake smiles
As we get cut down
by human files
The life we chose
may not be what we wanted
Believe that your safe
when you always feel haunted
As you remember how much
that you were taunted
Its not easy to live the life
that we were given
Those that we loved
were insanely driven
By the suffering they felt
for such a long time
We've seen all their tears
from being treated like grime
They've been suffering
suffering for so many years
Unable to go anywhere
without walking in fear
They've been given
so many emotional scars
They stay so far away
unable to join the other stars
They want out of their relationships
trying to keep their hearts closed tight like steel
If you haven't known already
that is The Pain We Feel

I wake up at night
knowing it can be accomplished
For what I plan to achieve
cannot be abolished
It must stay clean
and always polished
For I know my dream
cannot be demolished
I wait endlessly
til it comes true
Because I know
over the years that it grew
Its all worth it
worth the while
Til the day
that I can truly smile
The day it awakens
seems like miles
The day I will create
my own styles
The wait is so long
but I'm so close
So many things can go wrong
but I'll still make a toast
I know its still there
I feel it within me
The lock can be opened
for I have the key
But what if
just what if it doesn't workout
I'll be dripping in tears
and everything else will burnout
Just remember that
everything isn't how it seems
One day
I'll be living out my dreams

Each day
another person tags along
We say
there's nothing we do wrong
We know
they don't sing their own song
We go
on a journey that's lifelong
Today's society
just follows a crowd
If that's what you wanna be
don't think you'll be proud
How do you expect to win
when you're behind someone else's lead
You might as well put that dream in the bin
you're basically joining the same breed
Take a stand
walk on your own paths
Release yourself from the band
open up your own straths
Make the decision
don't become a borrower
You can see the vision
when you're not a follower

What is your gift?
Is it tons that you can lift
Are you a racer can you drift
On the track are you swift
In the water do you swim
Are you very good at gym
In chess can you check em
Can you bend it like Beckham
We all have talents
that we are given from birth
Some get em from their parents
but how much are they worth
They come in special package s
that you unwrap
Their like an extra baggage
better than table scraps
Some of us are good at gaming
or creating our own raps
Some of us are good at animal taming
or taking long naps
So remember in life
to hit that rift
Because your gonna appreciate
the same old gifts

Can you by it from a store
obtain it from ******
No
If you are smart
you know that it comes from the heart
Its more feeling
the connection between two people
Its not worth steeling
or it becomes feeble
Its not bought
is that what you thought
well your at fault
It makes you feel tingly inside
like butterflies
It brings emotions
joy and happiness
Keeps you caught in all the commotion
removes you from the deep dark abyss
It doesn't come in a potion
but you can feel it with one kiss
It also brings tears
from a heart that was dissed
It lets you know
that cupids arrow missed
It brings friends and foes
makes you feel ******
In the end it triumphs
at just one glimpse
You might be galumph
but it works better than charms of pimps
It soars in the sky
like the affection between two doves
Just give it a try
because all you need is love

Locked away
placed in the dark
Emotions sway
unable to break through the arc
Stuck day by day
in a closed park
Held captive no way out
from the start
Unable to feel
too many chains rapped around my heart
No appeal
stuck like groceries in a shopping cart
Draw within the lines
immovable like canvas art
Can't get out of the music
just a replay of a track
Need a remix
a new beginning a new stack
Open the door
shatter the glass from the cracks
Just a moment away
getting a new life to live
But its all fake
that's why I'm still held captive

Sometimes I look upon my memories from the past
Some are painful others can be a blast
I remember the moment I saw you last
Sometimes I wait for when I meet my next laugh
We first met at your departure
And the line was cut like a bulls eye from an archer
As time goes by I think of you
Sometimes hours I gaze upon you in the fading blue
I know the feelings I have are true
Til we meet again I'll always love you.