If i was here to make you happy
Then we should probably cancel this infomercial because you're never going to be convinced to enjoy my existence
It's in the way you speak
Trying to pillage the core
Make me feel weak
That's the best you got?
We're about to reach extra innings
Come to bat

There's so much out there to marvel over
But yet i'm still here
As much as i try to persevere
Everything feels meager
They make me feel like a minor leaguer, when they're a major leaguer
Feeling inadequate for days and nights
I know this feeling i'm feeling isn't right
For me and my sanity
I'm not tapering into insanity
But i feel like i'm touching it briefly
Am i transcending into the dark side?
Not the one with sinister evil
But the one with everlasting depression
I can feel the compression
And i can barely take it
I just want to feel normal
Is that so hard?
I guess it is
I'm just bored to pieces
Deprived from the basics
But i guess i can keep coping
Until i fade away

Crashing economy
Poor job growth
One job, might lose it
Hardly anyone can help out

**** it all to hell
Hopefully my guardian Angel can hear me when i yell
Hopefully she's not drinking that Corona again
When i told her not to
She's a great Angel, she really is
She just couldn't handle the excessive pressure going on within me
Can't sue her for trying
It's not her fault or mine everything is haphazardly and disjointed

A new age needs to be selected, annoited
In order for my breaths to breathe in something healing.

We were a flame that was hard to stay lit
And i constantly questioned myself on most of it
It was all worth it, regardless of the time wasted
Youth is a silly thing
And i'm not that person anymore
Regardless if i still ask myself if i'm a human is besides the point
There was a dozen of gin joints
I could of ended up at
But this one was the most pristine
I'm favorable on trying new cuisine
Because i'm the poster adult for cheap thrills
I really don't like how high these prices are nowadays
Not everyone is rich, you know?
Good moments and good times is all i want bestowed
But even though we're confounded in our woes
I want us to always fight these fires with harsher fire

36 hours, my thoughts persist to keep me up at night.
That's how long the change took
But it feels like 3600 days
Or perhaps even years.

All the foundations that were once built
Have seemed to diminish
As i try to find some way to make the finish
I try to find ways to replenish
My sorrowful soul
It always hits me hard and i don't know why
I've gotten better about it but it always seems to smack me full circle
It's not a wasteful existence but my mind is telling me so
And i've done nothing to make myself feel this way
I just do, and it's eating me alive
I want to permanently be happy and thrive
But the shrouds of darkness is trying to take me alive
If you have to put up with this much black
Than i want to come back

I hate change
Not the type you find on the ground
Or the inspiring differences
Just the way things falter, transform and corrode.

34 hours. Feels like 3400 days

The best poet ever is the one who looks at you like nothing else
And they would dissolve into ashes if they were without you
Its a hefty responsibility
Holding a life in your hands
That's why love
Is so hard to understand.

Don't you ever worry
You will never be one night
Hopefully you'll be in the thousands
But not everything goes to plan like we want it to
What does a poet like me to do?
I want you to keep gazing at me like that again and again until my death
The best women keep you from having a breathe
Because they constantly take it away
And when I say that, I'm no bluff
You're going to make me have Asthma
And I think I can vouch for that
Don't you question your value in this world
He might of seen you as an object
He might of used you
But I will make sure your dreams come true
By getting the treatment you've deserved all this time
Don't weep, it will be okay
They can't hurt you anymore
I'm here to take all the pain away
I'd much rather it be me than you
I'm uses to this more than you know