Patricia LeDuc

Patricia LeDuc Apr 2018

Gather up this new love
That was sent from above
Now it is ours to share

So to God send a thank you prayer

Give us inspiration to do for each other
What one could not do alone

Savor each moment as if it were the last
Live in the future, not in the past

Be prepared for sacrifice
Take heavenly advice

Don’t think once
Think twice !

So batten down the hatches
Tie up the mast

God is here at last

To help us ride out the storm
Of love brewing in our hearts

God is the Captain of our love at last

New love defined
Original 10/14/03
Posted 04/28/18

#love #god #prayer #inspiration #heart

Patricia LeDuc Apr 2018

Mental Health Upgrade

I can’t get up it hurts my ****
My knees go out I start to weep
I can’t stay awake
I can’t go to sleep
I’ve done what I can
So now I count sheep

My circuits are crossed
I stay home all day
With nothing to say
I’m lost and alone
So this is my life?
But at what cost?

My mental health is up for grabs
I am bipolar and it plays tricks on me
Sometime I fly more times I fall
So this is my life
I don’t want to play anymore

I take my meds as I should
Sometimes they work
Sometimes no more
Then I spiral down
To dwell in my hell
No one notices.
No one to tell

Don’t remember today
But remember the past
My apartment is not a house
Nor is it a home
So I am alone so alone

Try to read a book
But the words run away
I wonder what they have to say
I’m going shopping at the bipolar store
I need an upgrade but I won’t find it there

9/15/16 by Pat LeDuc

#mental #health #bipolar

Patricia LeDuc Apr 2018

Holding Out for Hope

How did this happen?
What did I do?
I try to control it
I try not to believe it
It happens so fast
Not much I can do
Manic...x...two

I scream and I cry
Oh no not again
I know the symptoms
But they creep up to fool me
Tried distracting it
Tried to watch TV
Walk around and around and
Around the room

Manic, manic, manic
Top of the room feeling panic
Whoopee Bipolar is here again

Hoping my feet touch the ground
It follows me
My brain...is not sound
It beckons me still
Again and again
I take the good and the bad
Trying to cope
Holding out for hope

9/30/16 written by Pat LeDuc
Bipolar is frame of reference to a normal life

#bipolar #hope #help #manic #cope

Patricia LeDuc Apr 2018

MY MIND ~ YOUR SOUL

My Mind is on the other side of Your soul
The one you think you can control
Your soul is a noxious ghoul
Hiding in that foul waste
I see through your face
I know
Of your tremendous deceit
You create chaos
So you won’t be found
Yet there you are
Peeking around
Breaking in to my mind
So that I will never find

~My way alone~

Better to know I’m not your fool
Bipolar Musings
~Straight out of my mind~
Pat LeDuc
4/27/18

#soul #deceit #ghoul #chaos

Patricia LeDuc Apr 2018

I Just Can't..Anymore

I can’t hear her voice
I’ve been given no choice

I can’t hold her hand
‘Tis not how I planned

I can’t kiss her cheek
It’s been many a week

I can’t see her face
There is such pain to erase

I can’t brush her hair
She must think I don’t care

I can’t ease her fear
She needs to let me near

I can only feel pain
I’m lost with nothing to gain

So the misery will remain
There is only one way to explain

I am broken to the core
I just can’t…anymore

3/20/04 ~ 02/20/18
For my daughter..I still love you

#fear #loss #child

Patricia LeDuc Apr 2018

NO U

The more I get to know U
The more I want to show U

Promises made
In the shade
Of our desire
There was so much fire

The more I get to know U
The more I want to show U

A fleeting glimpse
Of that promise
Made in our desire
Move it up a notch higher

The more I get to know U
The more I want to show U

Depth
Breadth
Wisdom’s woes
The more it shows

I’m glad I got to know U
Now I can’t do without U

10/15/03 ~04/26/18

#promise #love #shared

Patricia LeDuc Apr 2018

Fear

Fear

I am afraid now
That the words
I am getting
Are a warning
Of future events
I will be mourning
Must put this fear aside
Let the words ride
Express what is inside
From what I am trying to hide
Cannot let fear abide

Original 10/28/03
Posted 4/26/18

#fear #mourning #warning