The sun sets whilst darkness creeps
I am like the night, void of all light
And with this I see the truth we are
Humanity has become the veil of lies

We are not real in this world we see
Rather we are the product of falsity
The very painting of mathematics
The numbers of every conspiracy  

With this I can see the complacency
That was accepted based on history
Which leads to the circle of living
All of which is the sickness we accept

We are all the hell we want to refrain
Since we grasp every sin we hate
Life is but a paradox of hurt and joy
Yet pain reigns like Caesar in Rome  

And so we will be killed by knife
By the hands of our loved neighbor
Because we do not see any love
In the lives we lead beneath the clouds

I was swinging on this swing
Like a child from the past
And these thoughts swarmed me
As the bees do in the spring

The time slowed, but I was happy
A blissful moment I yearn for
When my mind was running wild
But my heart was sound and still

It's in these moments I feel again
The beauty that living delivers us
Like the touch of sun after winter
And your flesh begins to smile

But this has passed and here I am
Again in this pit that I've dug
Where I think myself into a whirlwind
As I sink deeper into the hell I've seen

And so life goes round and round
Like a Ferris wheel spins and spins
But there is no such joy in this
Rather an empty hollow space I know

I'm in the void I ran from long ago
Wishing I would have stayed
Wondering what would have been
If only I accepted the reality I was in

My human self filled with chaos
Has brought me to the false present
That is really the death I've chosen
The very fate I've longed to escape

Yet somewhere in me waits for you
I cling to a hope that circles are lies
And there is a way to end this
That I won't keep ending back here

So as these moments of sleep
Pass me by like the wind in the fall
I will float like a leaf until I land
On the grounds my desire's dream

In lieu of all that happens in life
I find happiness in your mind
I'm reminded of all that is good
When you're there by my side
I know that when I know you
You fill me with a love I never knew
And strengthen me into a woman
Whom could never be without you
He is within my heart that seeks
My mind is opened to all that is
With Him I find all the treasures
I had searched for in my flesh
And my life sees all that I am
Without You I am only porcelain
A doll breakable by the touch
However I cling to you for strength
Where I find all my dreams a reality
You give me every fantasy I longed
And You give me the life i desired
With this I fall to my bruised knees
Praising the beauty you've granted

My heart is becoming numb
As my mind runs in circles
Attempting to escape truth

Life has taken me to the edge
Facing me with every choice
Of which builds my character

Like a mirror I see myself
But I do not fathom anything
I only question every bit

As I ponder where I stand
I find I am not naked here
My bare skin is embalmed

While my thoughts thrive
Like mold in the summer
As they bite like winter cold

Who is this, I’ve become?
How have I arrived here?
And where am I to go?

I long to feel alive again
Wishing I could feel you
As that time by the lake

He’s done something
You have changed me
My flesh cannot understand

With this I become a puzzle
And the vital piece is lost
I am broken like the dead

I’m trying to discover humans
But I cannot complete the task
For I am resting in the silence

That I have embraced
Through the pain I’ve claimed
By the possibilities I denied

As I taste the air tonight
I reminisce our memories
Finding myself in that diner
With a large slice of cake
Discussing our lives
Swinging in that playground
With the illuminating moon
Telling our visions and dreams

These were the better times
When my heart ignited
And I showed you all of me
While you exposed yourself
We showed our selves bare
And learned each other’s bodies
In the midst of the storm
Searching for every answer

But quickly the woe set in
My naive self discarded you
As attention consumed me
Now it’s you that shuts down
As you turn cold in my presence
Masking any feeling that exit
In the whirlwind of our lives
That swims in a changing sea

I see my reflection in this water
And feel every ounce of regret
For the love I denied you
With the warmth I robbed you of
My love you are my everything
The brightest parts of me
Are composed of every bit of you
I long for your tender embrace
Those lips that bring tingles

In the end I need your soul
That spirit of yours is in me
It caresses my mind like a lover
But tortures me like a demon
I have taunted you like so
And now its my turn to be killed
I’m yearning for the numbness
That I plagued on your mind

With this, I know,
I will always,
Only love you

As quick as the winds caress
My heart sinks as the air thickens
The weight of the world triples
And I'm crumbling under it all
I silently sob as I begin to choke

No one prepares you for heartbreak
It just creeps up like the night
And blinds you instantaneously
Leaving you lost and confused

I drift into a sort of numbness
Attempting to destroy my memory
Of days where my smile was genuine
And Joy existed in the hell of life

But through this attempt of forgetting
I find myself still crawling on cement
Spitting up the blood I've lost
Shedding all the tears of my flesh

I'm broken from my spirit to my bone
There is no horizon I see any longer
Only the darkness that hovers me
Masking all the truth within this soul

I hear them again in my head
They buzz like bees in a hive
And I lose my sanity day by day
I find my self back to the beginning
Where the nothingness I had felt
Became exactly what I was
Now I'm running towards this
Backwards to the past that broke me
Yet brought me a sick satisfaction
That is malicious by character
A certain synthetic happiness
That feels more real than I can say
So here before myself I stand
Naked as I've come to be
Drenched in salt, swollen, incomplete
And I surrender to the queen
I'll drink your poisoned honey
Joining your fleet of slaves
Relinquishing my flesh to you
So I can find a way to breathe
And sleep away my being
Into the bones I was born to be