The wooden floor is drenched in blood
That you have shed from your mouth
I pick up the teeth that you have lost
And question why I am so calm
Then I see myself losing my bones
Breaking into a body beaten down
To a nothingness that is mere ash
I am the residue of the hell I lived
A fear encompasses my flesh
From my core to my mind to the soul

I am scared beyond comprehension
Of all that lies beneath the dirt
I am decaying like them but yet...
I scream in the panic as the light dims
And I find myself sweating in the horror
Where have I gone to have come to this
I am nothing but the void in the sky
The discomfort has turned to agony
So I smile to hide the truth in my heart
He has no idea...They will never know
That I am simply broken like pixels

You can only see me if you look consciously
But I am a deceiver as is the media
I hide behind everything that molds me
Like cement I am hardened to be stepped on
I am the rotted apple you toss away
Because I lost my spirit in the war
That you sent me through by passion
Desire has killed me as has every sin
I am no longer here...I am dead to you
And to everyone who thinks they see

The hour strikes to midnight
And I find myself consumed
As these thoughts choke me
They grasp my mind intensely
Gripping me with every strength
I toss
I turn
No sleep
Just wonder
Regret from the past
Fear of the future
And hurt from today
I cannot seem to find control
No air to fill my lungs
Nor peace to calm my flesh
Just chaos in my head
Congesting me with vigor
I question everything I can
As I long for all that could be
And die to all that has been
I lay here empty in my soul
For giving up all that I sewed
The birds chirp as the sun rises
And my eyes sink deeper
As I think to the point of death
I burn from the exhaustions
I throb from the insomnia
Yet my body fights my flesh
That I gave up long ago

Deep beneath the willow I lay
Tangled in her rugged roots
Her hands grasp me for life
While I slowly lose my lungs
And her branches rain upon me
Soaking the soil just as my flesh
Swelling my body like salt
Burning my skin like tears in winter
I conclude that this is my fate
Dead in the life of the world
Alive in the truth of raging hearts
I am the weeping willow's daughter
The child trapped in her womb
Never birthed into a singing spirit
But just a rotted carcass
Clinging to anything that breathes

If he knew what lays beneath this skin
He would know that my heart beats
Like a voodoo drum in celebration
Strong and powerful filled with passion
I look upon the past in such regret
Wishing I would have taken your path
I want to walk with you through the woods
That ignite your spirit with hope
I long to to cross the river on a line
Like we had that day when we were friends
You confided in me as I did to you
And all the while I dreamed of us
He was there for me in all my struggle
I tried to be there in all his woe
You know I cared for you with every part
But I put you through the fire of my life
I had you walk on burning coals
That were conceived in my hell
I love you with every cell that composes me
However I know that all my words
Are absolute nothingness in your mind
Your world has no space for my flesh
And with this I brake into pieces
I disintegrate like dust in the wind
In the end I would do anything
To be in your arms and touch those lips
With my own in all the desire that lives
Within my soul and in my bare bones
You are there until I lay within my casket
My dear I apologize for all the strife
And yet I hold to my hearts needs for you
As I try to digress, my dear I love you

As I hear the piano keys sound
And each string from the guitar
I travel back to your tender arms
Where I found safety in all its truth
You do not know nor comprehend
How much you truly meant to me
And as the time passes nothing fades
The music continues on each day
My dreams capture you in purity
But in reality I am here without you
And my heart silently sobs daily
For I've lost the best thing I ever had
Because fear and uncertainty
Bonded to me in an unfamiliar place
Like a husband I served them
These things had broke me
And as I lay upon my empty bed
My mind inevitably thinks of you
I conceive every possibility
I shed every tear that sings longing
But you will never trust my heart
The way I had trusted you that day
I left every chain that tied me down
In hopes that I'd find a freedom
That only you will ever understand
Nonetheless I tossed it like dust
And it dissipated into the air
Yet I breathe it in and choke endlessly
On the wonder of all that was
And everything that could've been
Instead I'm consumed by the rush
Of a city that holds so many promises
But you are not within them
Leaving me hopeless of the future
Where you and I walk hand in hand
And I quietly die in the midst of it all

With all its bones and flesh
And veins that speak the soul
Tells a story in its movement
In the rhythm of the spirits song

When two bodies move about
Like birds in heat within the summer
They sing a song of passion
As they taste each other's sweat

The music continues to linger
Even if we no longer hear the sound
But these dancers drink the salt
They have longed to share

As every curve speaks through bends
And every touch tingles within
It is the body that shows us
That love knows every tongue

So let's write our stories in each step
And breathe each other into our cores
Where every bruise is bared
As our skin slowly strips itself

Let us all buzz around like bees
In pursuit of the flower's nectar
That creates the honey of our minds
To feed every heart the sweetness

Of the truth our shapes can speak
And let us be true in every beat
So that no lie can hide beneath us
And our bones can be white as snow

As I lived in the storms that you summoned
I found myself drowning in the flood
I searched for the surface, to breath again
But I only kicked and choked on the water
That surrounded my bones like skin

Through it all I swallowed the salt
And dried out my throat like a desert
Burning the tender flesh that was left barren
In the attempts of survival in this hell

But I relinquish everything I have to you
I have died a thousand ways in a single moment
In your arms as they broke me in every breath
Like the devil you have stolen my soul

Now I rest upon the concrete ground
Freezing the skeleton that is left of me
And as I slowly dissipate like dust in the wind
The wrath you've blown into my spirit takes control

I am left to a mere nothingness
That is devoid of all reality, a pure illusion
I do not exist by your tongue's curse
This is my grave they lay the flowers upon

So I digress in all my thought with all of me
I bow to every lie I’ve eaten in this life
And enslave myself to every man I know
Because I am not here and I am not alive