if you want to forget her,
never stay ******* sober.

it is that time of the night again
when nothing but rabid thoughts
swamp every recess of my mind

it is that time of the night again
where i contemplate taking either
my own life or a cigarette from my pocket

it is that time of the night again
where i am forever plagued
by these three words

i.
am.
sorry.

these few words are for you.

*******.
i hate you.
i'm sorry.
i miss you.
i hate you.
*******.

every morning i wake
with your voice in my head
your taste on my lips
your breath on my neck
your head on my chest
your fingers in my hands

and your memory in this empty room

i am forever sorry
and i am forever yours

(here's hoping)

you are forever forgiving
and forever mine