you said you were an addict
i thought you are addicted to
joie de vivre, happiness or maybe smoking

you were an addict
but you were addicted to
sadness, drugs and pain

you were an addict
and i was ready to drown with you
untill you said you love drugs more than me

Been a while 4-15-20


i've already written these things
and they still don't matter
i've alerady ripped off these wings
and fallen into a shatter

the dreary drops of do or do not do
are merely evaporated dew
and wherever is my there
i'm finding it hard to care

I require a kiss
a long sensual merging
deep in my soul I need this
lest empityness keeps emerging

music batters me with memories
emotions brittle me with memories
she's still right here
they're all still right here

clouds cruise across the moon
loud in their silence
used to make me swoon
now it's just violence
ice pick to the eye violence

tired
burnt
my cat matters
love her purrs
everything else is just whatever

another drink
some same old think
it's just whatever
one more step towards forever

I was wishing upon a star
for a star upon thars
but I forgot what I meant
and thus goes clint

am i important? just like the other people?
and then, i started questioning my worth
just like that tears escape again from my eyes
questions and thoughts like those filled my head
overthinking really got me spared

I wouldn't get your love anymore
Babe, just smile at me one last time
I can't stop my tears from falling down
Just turn your eyes back to me one last time!

I don't want you to back to me
but don't get me wrong,
I don't want you to be next to me
Just listen to my song.
I don't want anything anymore
Just talk to me one last time!

I wouldn't see you at my door
at full moon night
You can go on your own way
I have no more fight
left in me, I know
I know I have no right anymore!

I have nothing to say
You do not need to stay
Do not need to stay close to me
My heart is broken but I can see
You're dreaming without me!

Do you have a heart or not
Do you have love for me or not
If you stay apart from me
Still then, have a good time,
Have a good time all the time.