i sit here and watch from a distance
my head angled down
i don't want you to see me looking at you
i don't want you to know i'm hurting
as i look at you, at your family
i remember everything
not just the bad times, but the good
sometimes the good memories hurt more than the bad
because we know that they will never happen again
they've just become a distant memory
a thought that will only bring me pain and hurt
a part in time that was pure joy, that you turned into torture
as i remember your words they cut me deep
a knife slices through my heart, leaving me with just the memories
the bitterness of the wind dances across my flesh
a shiver of loneliness goes up my spine
i sit here alone in the distance
pure hurt running through my veins