This is me losing my ******* mind
While trying to save it.

My brother saw my cuts
He did not question me
He lifted his sleeve
And revealed his



l.c.b.

it's not that I want to ruin my body,
but you ruined it.
you did this to me
cuts
they don't make me any stronger,
in fact they make me weak.
all the pain, all the truth
I wear like a battle wound.
you
you did this to me.
and for some reason, the loss of my own blood doesn't upset me.
the loss of my dignity doesn't upset me.
but, the loss of you does.

I think they call it suicide
When you do it knowing you're going to die
But does it count
If you have already killed my insides?

He literally ripped out your heart
You trusted him with all you had
He's the reason for the tears on your pillowcase
The reason for the medical pills you take

Now you feel so alone
You have lost your home
Don't know where to go
He's all you've ever known

He connected my heart to the ground
I've lost so much sleep
I stay up too late
Can't sleep past eight
I curl into a ball
And I remember it all
As I shake and I tremble
Just as I got my life assembled
He just had to go and tear me apart

As everyone is laughing
You lay down your head
All you can do is remember the things you can't forget
I wish this desk could take me, **** me in
So I'd never have to feel this pain again

Its a raw sort of emotion to be so mentally exhausted that you start become physically fatigued,
To give up on yourself on account of the fact that you are a burden to even the ones who swore they believed.
You are a burden to yourself,
A nuisance to every one else.
Who wants to deal with someone that lacks the capacity to cope,
What do you do now that everyone has left and you're at the end of your ropes?

I pray one day that I remember who I used to be,
Before you embedded yourself in my blood and stole my sanity away from me.
I hope some night I will easily fall into slumber,
And I hope that when I do that I do not still wake to thoughts that sound like thunder.
I crave for the moment I can stand my own
reflection,
When my goals and dreams return to me and I have some sort of direction.
I will be here waiting for the day I save myself with some sort of solution,
Until then I'll hold myself in search for this chapters conclusion.

It's funny how one can save millions,
But millions can't save one.