"Go ahead, be a failure
that is all you ever were to me"

"Let go, be a quitter
that is all you could ever be"

There is no reason to struggle
against the inevitable
Your success is a day I shall never see

"Hang on, stay whole
Trying is a sign"

"Stand up, take control
The last say is mine"

Keep on fighting
the battle is not over
Defeat will not be the last thing I see.

These rules and regulations
all made for all our safety
when did they become more?

So smothering
with no room to wriggle.
Why do I feel trapped?
follow them too strictly?

They say we have a choice to follow
but to differ is to be ridiculed
even receive a penalty
whatever the size.

The rules made to protect me
make me feel lost

Somedays I want to walk diagonally
instead of straight block by block.

but I don't

because what would be the point
of breaking a rule for want?

When the sky clears
and I see that first ray of light
there is hope.

Things will be better today
I can be all right.

Standing barefoot in the bitter wind
and being happy
because the sky is blue

I know could be an odd thing to do

but after so many days of darkness
the sun is a welcome sight.
The trees are restless
The cold winds blow away the night.

Anything can happen on a day like today,
a day when I actually feel okay

I want friends
I want companions
tell me stories
care that I am ill
find me when I am worried
or lonely

I want to be the first one you tell your big news
I'd like you to want me around

but I know I am not very exciting
to most I am particularly dull
It seems if you can't keep your friends
then you don't get any at all

I have nothing to offer
and isn't that the point?
since I am nothing
there is no reason to hang around.

I want to be someone
worthy to be loved

I am not

I need to be
someone other than I am now
The me I am
doesn't do well in this world

I need to be brave
not insecure
Charming
not withdrawn

But how can I reach out to others
when  all I want to do is hide away?