I really wanted to say "I Miss you"...Badly!
I really wanted to say "I Love you"...Genuinely!
Like a child asking for his Fairy...
                                       What is the point!
A Fairy you see in your dream!
A Dream that even not drawn by You!
                                        What is the point!
                                                    to
   ­                                             Dream
                                                    or
         ­                                        Love

She Said "I'll put my hand on your chest, so your heart slows down and finds peace and silence"...
                                                    H­eart....
When Heart doesn't feel belong to this body, where I would find Peace!
                                                  
                                                     Peace...
When Peace has no meaning, it becomes like a phantom in the desert!
                                                  
                                                     Silence....
When Silence is fed up from this chaos, then Screaming out of anger is the way out!

                          Tell me where do you want to put your Hand!

Tried to connect with my breath and I found you there!
Tried to close my eyes and meditate and saw your face with that crazy smile!
Holding my billow I remember when we hug each other saying goodbye!
                            I realized......  
                       How fragile I am!
                    I realized she is......my Universe!!!

I feel cold in every tiny vein!
In every second, every part of me is deprived from life!
As if the Hope I had with Love being euthanize!
I won't feel the warmth anymore!
                           I won't feel Myself or My Heart anymore!
                                      I've been discharged from....
                                                       Life!

Your words showered me with Love!
Your words gave me the warmth inside my soul!
With your words I disappear from the Hideous World!
I'm in peace with your words....
                         I'm in love with your words


                                      But.....
                               Not with you!

Does love exist!
                                  Is it a fancy....
                   Is it only found in mythology!

                                    With her.....
                                       Love
         Like the kiss between Arwen and Aragon

                                    With her.....
                                       People
         Labeled me the lover.....However I'm in reality
                                    I'm a friend!
                              What is my crime!

Is it a thought, it can be!
Is it a hope, no harm to consider!
Is it around Love, let us find out!
Is it a confusion, slightly!

I know one thing…… A lot of whispers inside every corner in me!

Am I getting angry…. absolutely!
Am I reaching beyond the stretch of my patience…Definitely!
Am I touching the ceiling of losing my faith… Obviously…


I can survive out of pain!
I can move on with the hurt!
I can tolerate wounds outside and inside me!

But
I can’t survive Lost!
I can’t tolerate wasted feelings!
I can’t let my reborn heart down!

I just want….
To shut up all those  voices and talks inside me!
I don’t know who is talking to me…..
Is it myself…
Is it my heart…
Is it my brain…
is it my soul…
is it The God…
Are they the angles…
Are they Heave’s blesses…

I don’t know where they are coming from…
I know they are taking me to places, where I can’t rest…
I don’t know their structure…
I know they go deep in every breath I’m inhaling and not going out…dwelling and going in circle all over me!
I don’t know why they wan to talk to me!
I know there is a message…

What the message is!….
I woke up feeling i’m  becoming a Hell-boy doomed ages ago!
Other days, i feel i’m the Grey Wolf, protecting my territories ..


I don’t want to reach “Beware the levelheaded person if they’re angry.”….
I don’t want to reach the cry that who are in Heaven and Earth can’t understand…

I just want…
Sleep with her…. Not the way you are thinking…
Smell her… Also not the way you are thinking…
Looking to her eyes before i close my eyes and sleep in peace…

that is a dream, a wish, a hope, that won’t come true…
and that what makes it more…..
Outrageous!                                      

I might…
Not open my eyes after that and die in peace…
Leave the world behind me and go far away…
Lose the faith in something called love…

At least…
Finally i slept in peace!
A peace not defined by human and defined only by my…
Heart and Love!