Depression is sad
Awful
Horrible

But if you are attempting
To be positive
I guess you could say
That it has it's pluses

For instance:
I no longer fear death

I can climb to the sky
Walk as close to the end
As I like
I can jump from higher
And do more

For it has been quite awhile
Since I last feared death

The prince is dead
the castle has crumbled
he failed the quest as soon as he stumbled
off a high wall
and down to the ground
upon which he perished with hardly a sound.
The princess is doomed
now trapped in a tower
where she watches the world blacken hour by hour
the sun went away
and the grass shriveled up
the demons now revel in the ash and the muck.
Oh the kingdom is ruined
and the people all wail
but heroes all die in true fairy-tales.

No little girl,
You don't know pain
You are just a child
You say you want to die
But you are probably lying

No little girl,
You don't know stress
You are just a child
You say it is drowning you
But you are probably lying

No little girl,
You don't know anxiety
You are just a child
You say you can't breathe
But you are probably lying

No little girl,
You don't know depression
You are just a child
You say you hate living
But you are probably lying

No little girl,
You don't know these things
You are just a child
You say you speak the truth
But you are probably lying

No stupid adult
I do know these things
Yes you are an adult
You say you understand
*But you are definitely lying

I will not try
to fill these pages
with what i know
and what i don't.

Instead
I will fill them
with how i feel
and what i think
and why i dream.

I will fill these pages
with every wondrous
feeling i've ever felt
and the ones that have yet been introduced

These pages will be so
full
that the journal
will be noticeably heavier.
Than when I began

It will call to those who are apt.

And it will show them the
wondersand joys
of my life.
But also the
sorrow and rage.

She must be careful
because as words fulfill and inspire.
they can also destroy and diminish.
The soul.

I believe in the power of words.
And how they can make you feel
Hopefully, one day

She will too.

Intimacy.
doesn't have to be
about holding hands or sharing beds.
It can be felt in the way you never leave my
mind.
And in the way, you always know what to say.
It can be felt in sharing my every thought assured you will reply truthfully.
honestly.
It can be felt in the way
i am not afraid of what I say
In the words that make my heart swell, even though they lack any obvious romance.

That's what honest intelligence will do to a girl like me.

It will make me believe.

That's my definition of intimacy
I may run from it
now and then

But don't be discouraged, my thoughts will always remain with you, even when I am gone.

A worry stone
Is what you rub
When you are stressed
Or worried

I use mine
Quite a lot

Do I look okay?
Did she notice?
Do I talk funny?

Rub rub rub

Why did you ask?
Did you mean it?
Why is this happening?

Rub rub rub

I don't understand
I can't do this
I am so dumb

Rub rub rub

I won't make it
This will never work
I am so ugly

Rub rub rub

Now my stone is gone
I rubbed it all away
Now I have nothing
To make the worry go away

I opened my eyes
To the world
When I was born

Then I realized the world is crap
And now I want to close them

*Is that really such a bad thing?