I can't tell how I feel
The rats are inside her again
I am a boiling kettle whistling
The blood is hot in her veins

I try to keep it in perspective
Her own fear devours her
I over achieve to balance the scales
They have nothing to be jealous of

Do not fall in love with a woman who loves the same music you do, because when she leaves, music is all you have left, then even your passion for music, begins to betray you.

Running barefoot in
the woods. Naked
and all alone.

Stumbled on some
stones. I fell on all
fours.

Looked up and saw
a wolf that had glowing
fur and eyes that shined
so bright through the night.

He gave me some of his
body heat to warm me
up.

I took a few of the stars
that dangled from his fur
and wove them onto my
skin.

And he welcomed me
into his heart and cradled
me like a child in his mother's
arms during the night
while we heard the
owls hum a song.

A song that would make
all the untamed animals
come out and dance.

A song of love that would
get you out of your pants.

A song that would set you
in a never ending trance.

A song that washes your
soul from gentle sin.

I was no longer lost and
alone. Cause I met a wolf
that welcomed me home.

I met a wolf who saved
me from the blistering
cold winds and the
dark.

I met a wolf who brightened
my life with his own
sparks

I met a wolf who knew how
to define the word
L.O.V.E* ~

Today is one of those days
where I feel nothing.
I feel like i'm not prepared.
I feel like a failure.
Today is one of those days
where I feel like I am nothing.

Maybe I'm too fat
Maybe I eat like a man
Maybe I've got no poise
Maybe I'm too loquacious
Maybe I...

Honestly, I know.

I know my tongue slashes throats and
My eyes asphyxiates.

I know my personality is too strong for a little person
That I amaze and scare at the same time.

I know I'm a strong lady- *too strong for you to handle.

That's why I have been able to stand up from where you pushed me.
That's why I am able to think of myself.
That's why I am not blaming love but the person in love.

Honestly, I know
That you can't take the blades of my tongue

Honestly, I know
That you can't say I'm beautiful

Honestly, I know
That you do not love me like how I love you

Honestly, I know
That you are selfish

Honestly, I know
That I am now seeing truth

After all these weeks of crying my eyes out,

I'm back.

because honestly i know

Some days I have to breathe a little bit louder, cry a little bit harder, just so that i can realize I'm still alive without you.
Some days I can still hear the beating of whatever is left of my heart and if I could take all that is left and give it to you.
And I'm starting to think that you left because I ran out of lovable pieces and all that was left of me was the pent up anger and self-hatred.
And maybe one day I will be okay without you, but I will never stop missing you.