She cried an island of sand.
She drank her tears.
She walked on the dessert with her bare feet.

She was lost.

She wander on a sunny day.
It was warm enough to melt her ice.
She washed those unhealed wounds with her sweat.

Sweetly and slowly, she was in pain.

Sand on her eyes.
Sweat on her wounds.

She dove  into her pool of tears and
saved herself awake back home.

Take me away. I want to fly with my wounded heart. I want to scream with the stars. I want my tears to shine.

Take me away. I want to vanish like a sad song. Be oblivious like an unwanted memory.

Take me away. I want to walk with my bare feet. I want to dance with my breaking bones.

Take me away. I want to breathe in the smoke of the ice. I want to embrace the warmth of the fire.

Take me away, but I know you won't.
So I'll take away myself from you,
because you are not good for me anyway.

I want to stop breathing.
I thought for a while,
If wanting will last for an hour or forever.

I want to stop breathing.
There's a dagger pierced through my heart.
Everytime I breathe in, I embrace pain.
Everytime I breathe in, I exhale tears.

"I don't know, which is more painful?

To continue breathing with a broken heart or to continue shedding tears while losing myself in parts?"

I want to stop breathing and sleep.
For I know, in my sleep,
There is void, unknown, and an end.

I came to see you unprepared
I didn't know that it will be the end.
Was that a greeting of farewell?
I was clueless until my heart felt a little unwell.

Blur and dark, a kind of uncertainty that flashed through my eyes,
You waved and smiled, but you turned your back, it meant goodbye.
My heart sank in the silence of dawn.
This heart fluttering journey stopped because you are not the one.

I tried to escape, I wanted to see the light,
But there were full of unguarded tears blocked my sight
If only I knew that someone owned your heart
I should have not love you from the very start

I believe that it was not a mistake to love you so,
I know that starting today, I will let all these feelings go.

This is my quod of secrets untold.
An ode to my heart rived by memories of old.
Now the moment calls for me to finally write,
The dubiousness of the quirks I spite.

It was the height within the octave of the decade,
When my ticker suddenly strayed.
I got caught in an eros I deemed true,
An instant juncture that I hadn't got a clue.

That wight I stumbled across with was amiable and vigorous.
Who ventured to garner my sentiments which made me ambiguous.
Who intoned some hymns with gracious prance,
Hoping to hook my regards with a chance.

I unbolted my heart to let that wight in,
Layed my cards and hopes in all that could have been.
I deduced it was something I could keep.
So I quashed my uncertainties and took the leap.

But I never knew until it was too late,
The risk had passed, I fancied the ardor I thought was sincere and great.
Myself waned in those words felt and spoken.
Never anticipated my heart and innocence would be broken.

If only there's another shot unused to tweak my adjudications,
I would permute them without hesitation.
If that would be the scheme to liberate my heart,
I would partake in all of its parts.

Of all the things time can tell,
Above is the list I unconsciously dwell.
It may be so dense in pushing them off the cliff,
but these are the questions I start with "what if".

The hardest question I ask myself is, why?
I am uncertain of why I ask myself, why?

I am looking for answers, unknown answers that I can't have and cannot be found.

Please don't ask me, why?
I can't give you uncertain answers,
or words that I can't speak.

It is not even found behind my tongue.
It is not even hidden inside my head.

Please don't ask me, why?
I don't even know, I am tired to know why.

How will I know the answers?
If my feelings are uncertain, my mind is gone, my heart is cold, words are unknown.

I am lost.

My heart is deaf, my heart is mute
It beats slowly, whispering the truth.
I meet you, I feel you.
It beats a little faster, it's joy and not blue.

My heart is deaf, my heart is mute,
I thought I can never hear,
I thought I can never speak.
I feel you, feeling my heart speak against my chest.

"I love you"

Words that you cannot hear from me.
A feeling that I cannot speak.