it was a tuesday when you left me
my body filled with a bottle of moscato
my fingertips shaking over the keyboard
hovering over the letters as if i was typing in midair

you told me you were finished
that you didn't want me to be a part of you anymore
as if i never made you feel anything
as if my touches on your skin meant nothing

i licked the brim of my glass
as the tears rolled down my cheeks
my tongue feeling the cold liquor
wishing i had more and more
enough to drown me and swallow me whole

you were a part of me for so long
my daily routine, the part of my day i looked forward to most
and now you're gone
a gust of wind through my ear like a whisper
telling me you love me
never to return

when we make love, its a fourth of July display in my cranium.

She's explosive in my life, I cant replace her.

Im the loser of my friends...
all my friends have love in there life, and im a waste of space.

She leveled me, tore my world apart and flushed it right in front of me.

If I could show you that the one thing that tore us apart is the one thing I wont touch again, a miracle would happen.

I need a woman who will understand I won't stop loving you, this hologram, a fragment of a memory of you.

I think this is it for me, sitting around waiting for this "band" to get back together, while you picked happiness.

Lying is my nature of business. Im working on a new career.

Who are you?
You're not the same person you were two minutes ago.
I just don't get you.
You're compulsive, and corrupted.
You're easily addicted.
You have friends in your mind,
but in reality friends you'll never find.
You're simple yet, confusing
like a Rubik's cube.
With all your twists and turns.
This pain you put upon me
has left me with cuts and burns.
Will we ever learn?
To get along
and fix these never ending battles?
Your bipolar versus my anger.
Some days, to me you are a stranger.
Who I thought I knew has suddenly disappeared.
Your disease is something I've always feared.
Illness invaded your mind,
and has taken over who you once were
Leaving all your past senses blind.