Scribble scribble on the wall
Make me pretty that is all
Love me dearly what I hope
Everything was all a joke

Vision goes dark and blurry
Inhaling smoke and party
You're all I want, oh baby
Why can't you see me clearly

Love me just a little bit more
Don't let me get out of the door
Bloodshot eyes filled with **** regrets
Remember the day we first met

The irony of having no idea what to write about pain
When that's what I feeling all these time
The jokes you gave
The waves of laughter you received
The fakeness of them all
The insecurities we feel
I hope you notice
I hope you understand
I hope you feel
I hope you see
I hope you don't
Whenever you touch me
A small hope arises
Then I see her
Now my dreams are scattered, forgotten
My desire grows every day
Telling them I know what I am doing
When I actually don't
Telling them I am okay
When I am really not

Smile, and my heart just flutter
Taken aback, I frown unknowingly
"It could be for anyone", I said
But it would be nice
If that smile's for me
Smile, and sometimes my brain dies
Uncontrolled blood flow to my face
My stomach just dances at the thought
My palms and face sweat furiously
I might just blow up right here right now
Smile, and it would be enough
I'll watch from a safe place
Out of your own world
Where you and I can't get hurt

I was wearing a green shirt paired with our PE pants
Clothes that seemed to add coldness to my body
Nervousness was gnawing unto me
Even just opening the door gave me cold feet
I almost backed out
They were talking to me and all I could say was yes
I stood there like a display
I opened my mouth
Nobody was talking
They were actually listening
Then they looked at one another and I felt timid
Fear knocked on my door again
I say the next line then bowed my head
Pretending that the action goes along with the scene
I don't look at them
I drop on the floor
I am dead

im not a violent person i swear
but people, this is all i can bear
i get hurt like a normal person
but i hide it like it's my profession
your words choke, they cling to me
they bite and sting like a bee
tears falls down
just act like a clown
everything will be fit
lay down, don't quit
fists tighten, don't hit
my dear be calm, just sit

My brother
My sister
My parents
My family

Whenever I'm with my friends
Whenever I have longer sleep
Whenever I eat
Whenever I have free time

Drinking my favorite coffee
Watching my favorite series and movies
Listening to my favorite band
Enjoying what I do

Even when there are tears in my eyes
Even when I'm down
Even when I'm broken
And there's somebody for you

My own satisfaction
My contentment in life
My sadness
My own feelings

Wide eyes open at midnight
Stars shimmer their own light
Take a peek inside my head
I recorded everything you said

An image of you come to mind
Tricking me to shut this appetite
Still, I imagine your fingers come and go
Lying to everyone is all I know

Oh this heat I wonder how to bear
When we're together please beware
Frustrated, I sigh in defeat
Take it off, sync with the beat

Satisfaction getting hard to achieve
Your breath is all I want to breathe
Put it in nice and slowly
I'm having fun, won't you agree?

I'm a bad person this I declare
Erratic thoughts of you everywhere
My feelings will part only with death
Come on, let's paint the town in red

The water flows in this deep hole
I'd do anything just to get my goal
Climb a mountain to reach the pole
Deeper and harder, it reaches my soul

Intoxicating love
Flowing to my body through my brain
Straight through the heart
Flowing freely
Like the rivers to the sea
The rain to the ground
And just how we breathe

Missing people
Chatting friends
Waiting for somebody out there
Who actually cares

Crying of course,
Remembering you, then
Cry or course
Repeat what you said

Nobody was there
Except for my teddy bear
My pillow to catch my tears
My bed to witness these

Summer was spent
Loneliness was what left
Memories of you
Confusing feelings and regrets