i see promise in the astral realm
to realize truth within the physical.
when normal dreaming becomes bore,
day dream wont let me explore far enough
to go deep enough to unlock words they wont say...
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financial intelligence,
symbolic terms,
number codes
& sound programming.
progressing in alignment,
meeting guidance half way.
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so now,
i take the first step.
if i look right,
i may look left.
who cares what's next?
unless creation turned creator.
wanna be way too involved
over simple catering to one-sided mono-polys.
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polyester in the fields,
no more cotton to be reeled.
no more lovers left alive,
anywhere?

i appreciate you,
& the more i think about it i can’t see myself without you.
it may seem too soon to tell,
but my heart is so manipulative.
though logic says otherwise,
love says do not give up.
because if you want it bad enough,
it’s yours ❤️

i make strangers of the people i meet.
i make enemies of the ones i love..

we're stuck in the past,
going back.
reviewing history
unattached.
we need to rebuild,
we need to enlight,
we need to spread love
and be one with the light.
we need a clean slate,
to set a new sight,
to know its alright.

i am at a cross-roads,
in the midst of two dimensions
with a decision that screams life and death.
i have somehow formed the most vitally graphic disconnection,
with a layer of convenience to protect.
& with a certain truth so far-fetched,
all of my years only reflect
a sense of pain,
and a lonely neglect.
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i no longer wear a sense of pride,
my ego has officially died
and everything that’s still inside of me
is in training for a war;
equipped with armor of
an honor that has been here before,
one to endure
with intentions so pure.

i worry less about having more,
& cherish all that i have.
i am distant from complaint,
i do what i can to help.
i live a life in my eyes pleasing,
ive seen true purpose,
need no more reason.
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i have been chosen,
to uplift,
i have a special chosen gift.
a light being,
i stand apart.
embracing beauty,
exploring heart.
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a wise girl from the east,
who’s seen her share of fears,
stands fearless at the gates of hell,
her skin embraced with stares.
no longer tied to the level,
a new portal opened up.
her demons wave,
her demons cry,
“to a great warrior,
we wish you luck.”

i swore to myself i wouldn’t be afraid to love again.
i stood strong as i won the war within me.
no matter how badly i’d been bruised
or the bad seeds planted.
i still wanted to give love a million second chances.
but it just runs from me.
love is done with me.

everything happens for a reason..

you can’t keep the pace
but live anyway
you will love in vain
but love anyway.

i realize that you will be who you are
and i am comfortable enough within myself
to allow you to express all that lies within you..
because who am i to try to change you?
after realizing my worth,  
ive realized that nothing is worth enough to disrupt my peace.
gracefully,
i move away from what no longer serves me
or deserves me.
patiently,
i wait on divine actions to arise before i consider your place in my space...
are you here to give or take?
for mine or for your sake?
for mind, soul or warm embrace?
you see im powerful,
still you see only half.
so make your choice
and
i hate to make you choose
but its them or its me.
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not in fear of or in face of an ego or some pride,
just protecting what lies inside ..

you make everything your sword.
running back to misconceptions,
strength & wit play the accord.
un-intimidated by wisdom,
unbothered,
unchanging.
consistent and complacent
but the patience is ranging.
from steady to dying
unfit but you’re trying.
misfit,
no denying
there’s nothing to confide in.
but you envision a love,
unkind,
unrequited.
in desperate need of
a simple teaspoon of new guidance,
dismiss all of the bad energies you’ve invited.
we’ll only survive if we fight it.

no love for the weak,
only loving on weekends.
no love through the week,
i am at my wits end.

let me love you,
let me need you.
you can have your cake and eat too.
Superman, your cape is crumpled in the corner of the room.
you can’t save these hoes and me too.
i can’t let them win, i need you.
i can’t let you in, if you don’t let me in.
i wont lose, you know im playing for the win.

i went from craving
desires,
sxxxually.
to spurning alliance,
definitely.
from the stroking of ego,
walls evasively caressed;
to a glimpse of all that’s righteous,
& a conscience yet undressed.
drowning in depth of
intimacy,
clouding respective
intuity.
fxxxcking the **** out of my
actuality.
in reality,
there was no mutuality.
only a tempered battle flee,
consisting of my soul’s attempted plea,
to be free.

it can all be so simple if we would just stop..
if we would stop trying to figure out 'solutions' that only add to the problems we've created and allow natural processes to take place.
do nothing, stand back and let the world heal itself because everything we try to do
does more harm than it helps..
to be honest,
if we were to be wiped clean from the face of the earth,
the evolution of creation new and ancient
would be beyond anything we can imagine.

school girl,
never follow the rules girl,
substance abusing,
think it’s amusing,
wanna be cool girl.
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its in my nature;
deliberate creator...
im master of my faith,
you see my motive and my fate
in the way i move in silence,
the way im never violent.
resilient and powerful,
with mystical abilities
no complications thrive
as i
explore all possibilities.
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i believe and i know,
there's more that's here than i show.
im in connection,
with
higher self,
reflecting my higher sense.
born with the knowledge to obtain any objective,
i speak the truth,
its true
a goddess introspective.

light figure,
bright figure,
lurking in the dark.
i see you in the bushes.
i see you making a mark.
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ill stand and stare,
for awhile.
i can not make out a form.
but im not getting any closer,
im not going any farther.

i am searching for your warmth baby,
i need it.
i am falling in love & i can’t believe it.
i am lost,
all this space
is so misleading.
but your voice
soothes my soul,
keeps me believing.
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