i realize that you will be who you are
and i am comfortable enough within myself
to allow you to express all that lies within you..
because who am i to try to change you?
after realizing my worth,  
ive realized that nothing is worth enough to disrupt my peace.
gracefully,
i move away from what no longer serves me
or deserves me.
patiently,
i wait on divine actions to arise before i consider your place in my space...
are you here to give or take?
for mine or for your sake?
for mind, soul or warm embrace?
you see im powerful,
still you see only half.
so make your choice
and
i hate to make you choose
but its them or its me.
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not in fear of or in face of an ego or some pride,
just protecting what lies inside ..

i worry less about having more,
& cherish all that i have.
i am distant from complaint,
i do what i can to help.
i live a life in my eyes pleasing,
ive seen true purpose,
need no more reason.
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i have been chosen,
to uplift,
i have a special chosen gift.
a light being,
i stand apart.
embracing beauty,
exploring heart.
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a wise girl from the east,
who’s seen her share of fears,
stands fearless at the gates of hell,
her skin embraced with stares.
no longer tied to the level,
a new portal opened up.
her demons wave,
her demons cry,
“to a great warrior,
we wish you luck.”

i swore to myself i wouldn’t be afraid to love again.
i stood strong as i won the war within me.
no matter how badly i’d been bruised
or the bad seeds planted.
i still wanted to give love a million second chances.
but it just runs from me.
love is done with me.

tell me

i make strangers of the people i meet.
i make enemies of the ones i love..

we're stuck in the past,
going back.
reviewing history
unattached.
we need to rebuild,
we need to enlight,
we need to spread love
and be one with the light.
we need a clean slate,
to set a new sight,
to know its alright.

i know you see the light, though its dim.
product of lies, coated in sin.
afraid to reveal what's within.
the truth is near,
the truth is here.

don't alter my reality,
or fill me with your insanity.
you hide things from me,
but i am here to say.
i am the truth, i know the way.
20 years later, trying to understand.
what am i? what is hu-man?
is there more to me?
is there more to see?

oh, earth. what have they done to you?
creatures of the earth, what did they do?
out of touch with nature,
too in touch with mankind.
too programmed to re-focus,
too ignorant, too blind.
why do i feel like im living a lie?

i seek truth, & the more i seek the less i discern.

greater a creation than what you see.
great is the creator, in you & me.
find your way, find your truth.
find your light, find your youth.

see no evil.
speak no evil.
hear no evil.

i am at a cross-roads,
in the midst of two dimensions
with a decision that screams life and death.
i have somehow formed the most vitally graphic disconnection,
with a layer of convenience to protect.
& with a certain truth so far-fetched,
all of my years only reflect
a sense of pain,
and a lonely neglect.
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i no longer wear a sense of pride,
my ego has officially died
and everything that’s still inside of me
is in training for a war;
equipped with armor of
an honor that has been here before,
one to endure
with intentions so pure.

no love for the weak,
only loving on weekends.
no love through the week,
i am at my wits end.

let me love you,
let me need you.
you can have your cake and eat too.
Superman, your cape is crumpled in the corner of the room.
you can’t save these hoes and me too.
i can’t let them win, i need you.
i can’t let you in, if you don’t let me in.
i wont lose, you know im playing for the win.

you make everything your sword.
running back to misconceptions,
strength & wit play the accord.
un-intimidated by wisdom,
unbothered,
unchanging.
consistent and complacent
but the patience is ranging.
from steady to dying
unfit but you’re trying.
misfit,
no denying
there’s nothing to confide in.
but you envision a love,
unkind,
unrequited.
in desperate need of
a simple teaspoon of new guidance,
dismiss all of the bad energies you’ve invited.
we’ll only survive if we fight it.

i went from craving
desires,
sxxxually.
to spurning alliance,
definitely.
from the stroking of ego,
walls evasively caressed;
to a glimpse of all that’s righteous,
& a conscience yet undressed.
drowning in depth of
intimacy,
clouding respective
intuity.
fxxxcking the **** out of my
actuality.
in reality,
there was no mutuality.
only a tempered battle flee,
consisting of my soul’s attempted plea,
to be free.

i am searching for your warmth baby,
i need it.
i am falling in love & i can’t believe it.
i am lost,
all this space
is so misleading.
but your voice
soothes my soul,
keeps me believing.
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you can’t keep the pace
but live anyway
you will love in vain
but love anyway.

when you’re lost in the wind,
i own the words to soothe your soul.
keep your diamonds,
i am worth far much more than gold.
inner peace, especially
you’ll find when you get near me
your fears alleviate.
you’ll see the unseen.
my aura is of essence,
my destiny derived
from the bloodline of creation.
i am creator,
in disguise.
you see the linger in my eyes.
you see all that you’ve been deprived.
i am the truth.
i see fulfillment in my youth.
simple blessings,
i am simply blessed.
when i am lagging i just catch my breath.
a certain healing in the wind,
a certain power from within.
a flower from the earth,
a flame you can’t put out.
more power to the earth,
reveal all you are about.
a soul with depth of oceans,
light energy waves in motion.
so calm,
silent devotion,
a dose of magic potion.

light figure,
bright figure,
lurking in the dark.
i see you in the bushes.
i see you making a mark.
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ill stand and stare,
for awhile.
i can not make out a form.
but im not getting any closer,
im not going any farther.

you’re my bestfriend,
like a side-kick made perfectly for me.
you’ve seen the deepest parts,
beneath the skin
like no one else can see.
i carried you inside,
& now my soul remains outside.
a fairy,
fearless,
magical,
unique
sent here to guide.
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i call you daughter,
i call you light,
i call you healer of the sight.
i call you queen
my heart your throne,
i call you spirit of the moon.
being with more meanings than one,
a product far beyond the sun.
you were created out of mercy
to remind me of a love.
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to spread and
teach the world on how to smile again.
you are my friend,
a keeping love until the end.
long as you’re here
ill be alright,
ill keep on smiling,
keep the fight.
you are my friend
& ill love you til the end.

school girl,
never follow the rules girl,
substance abusing,
think it’s amusing,
wanna be cool girl.
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everything happens for a reason..