Is this the best of the worst times
So many choices
Yet I made all the wrong ones
Can't stop all the voices
One of these days I'll burn
Could be tomorrow
Could even be today
It's just fate

Fate's a ***** sometimes
Messes with you like a witch sometimes
Never gives you what you wanted
Only gives you what you needed
They said
But I don't even know what I need or want
I just wanna stay in bed
Can't move my legs
Can't be bothered to
So is this what it's come to
Are you gonna leave me too

I'm half dead half alive
Wrist is on the edge of a knife
One inch between life and death
One step before falling in the depth
I'm such a ******* mess right now
I hope you don't think I meant it
And I'm sorry for making you worry
Just forget what I said
and leave me be

so one last toast to the good times
the last time we can unwind
i sometimes wish i can rewind
back to those days
back when we used to run away
you used to hid in this bale of hay
and we would wonder where'd you go
that was so long ago

and now you're all grown up
with all those responsibilites
livin it up
in that big ol' city
do you still remember all the good times
all the fun we had with the boys
remembering those still brings me joy

guess it's too late to be regretful
guess it's too late to say i love you
and now that you're gone
and as i write this song
i hope you're happy
i really do
i hope you're happy
happier than we ever were

Is that what you think
Is that how you feel?
I can't believe what I'm hearing
Is this even real?

So we don't talk anymore
what was all of it for
We don't love anymore
You kicked me out the door
There's nothing left
Not even a soft and gentle look
I'm gone from your life
That was all it took

Is he better than me
Does his kiss feel sweeter than mine
Do the memories of his face
keep you up at night
Guess that's how you feel
I just hope you'll be alright

The sun shines a flickering light
Will I still be standing when the wind comes blowing
Will I be gone with the flowers of yesterday
Darkness lies towards me
A pixelated future, nothing I can see
Trying to hold on to my dreams
But it flows away like water
Stood in front of the sky, a spirit opens a path
Though cold, empty, it's better than the aftermath

The night welcomes me with its soft embrace
The morning shines on my eyes
With its blazing gleam
Is this real, is this a dream?
I rub my face, hoping to wake up
Time's dripping ever so slowly
Dancing around me
Like some ****** up ballet

In front of me is the final pain
One more step then into the grave
Barren, yet so bright
Casting aside all my frights
Guiding me towards solace
Leading me away from the surface
I lay my head down, under the covers
I won't be awake for another

Or maybe it was nothing
To me it could've everything
At night I wonder
What would it be like
To be six feet under
Are there anything that lies yonder
I ponder

So many things I just can explain it
All this pain I can't contain it
As long as I can say I made it
Then that's enough for me
I don't need to know what's in store for me
You see
It's better being oblivious
Then knowing something this tedious

There's this nagging feeling
Deep in my bones
Keep checking my phone
Hoping you'd reply

Do you love me
Or do you love him
Well at this point
my chances are looking slim

Can you stop leading me on
Don't do this to my heart
Just one word and I'm gone
So give me an answer, yes or no
I just want to know

I knew you so well, so well
Couldn't stop you before
I told you what I should tell
Trying to keep you out of my mind girl
But I'm in hell

I don't wanna cry
No more use in crying
Anymore
Wish I had the strength
Wish I had the strength
To knock on your door

Systematically destroying myself over something I didn't do
Mathematically doesn't make sense but what else can I do
You're through with me you're through with life
But I'm not through with you
Not then not now not ever
Thought you said we would be together
Forever
Guess that forever turned into never