I did a huge mistake in my life
Given everything to cheer me up
You still stab me with your knife
Did everything to make it up

I'm left broken in pieces
My heart is so scared to try
I know my life is such a mess
But I never wanted to cry

All of them never wanted me
No matter how hard I please
Judging me on what you see
This much pain I can't release

Will I ever learn?
This is the world I can't explore
The past that I can't return
I have been here before

Please, accept me for I am trying
Not to please but to be accepted
I'm tired of being alone, crying
Disconnected and feel desolated

I dreamt dreaming of you
Reaching for your hands
Grieving for your love
Crying for your warm hugs

I am calling out your name
I saw you holding my hands
I never wanted to wake up
I chose to keep on dreaming

My heart is aching
I can feel the pain inside
My soul is troubling
I wanted to sleep again

I woke up in my dreams
But I'm still in my deep slumber
I am aware of my surroundings
But I can't feel my body

I chose to ignore it
Instead, I returned where you are
Where your hands reaches mine
In the place where I meet you again

I dream again but I never saw you
But I found the drastic memories
All the moments that I had with you
I can't take this big torment

I'll be forever in pain
I am looking forward on seeing you
For being with you one more time
When I close my eyes once again

I could swim the vast ocean
Dive through the deep abyss
For me to see your smile
With the sunset in your eyes

And as the night comes
The moon in your soul rises
Thus becoming my light
In the darkness of the clouds

The million stars above us
Are my reasons for waking up
For the stars are in your eyes
Stars that I only found in you

It's so sad that you're too far
I can't hold you nor touch
For I can only look upon you
I can only watch your smiles

This journey in the wide world
I'll continue my wandering
For your heart is my destination
For this world is named after you

We both are not destined
Maybe we're not compatible
I am emprisoned in my heart
And you have your freedom

You want that? I dont want it
Go with them? Go with me
Be with them? Better be with me
You're free? I'll suffocate you

The truth is, I am lonely
An insecured *******
In my world, on our world
I only want you and me

Sorry for I am a coward
Fear of fighting and risking
For when I commit myself
I mean commiting my life to you

One day you'll be proud of me
Telling you that I have made it
Where I've reached this point
That you told me that I should

It is a ******* and painful desire
But you said this is what I wanted
You said it was easy for me
So I'll make your wish granted

I've learned it all the hard way
I'll clean all the mess that I made
Take all the blame on me, myself
Cause you said, this is what I wanted

I'm getting weak down on my knees
But one day you'll be proud of me
That I have granted all your wishes
That you said I wanted to be

You said you'd be like me
But you will never do the same as me
You're doing it out of hatred
I did it out of all the pain

But one day, you'll be proud
All of my smile hides no pain
And all your wishes will be granted
For doing things you said I wanted

Is it just myself?
Or it is just my thoughts,
That the world has lost me
Or I'm lost in this world?

The droplets of the water
As fast as the running blood
Drowning as I sink in my thoughts
Oh, the rusty taste of my fluid

What would happen if I lost?
If I embraced this pointed edges?
Will I be able to change the world
Or the world will completely change me

The dim lighted room seems darker
The crowded streets seems lonely
The noisy surrounding seems silent
The lively words seems dying

I can feel my fragile heart
I am slowly getting sick
Is it just my thoughts?
Or it is just myself.

When you arrived into my life
You painted the vellum inside me
The aesthetic hue of yours
Brings meaning to my soul

The strokes of your brush
That fondness in every details
Those calm yet so great shades
Makes the most stunning art

The way you create your fine art
From the smiles in your lovely lips
And that universe inside your eyes
Suprisingly astonished my heart

Those tints you used from yourself
Created a wonderful match of colors
Producing a wondrous fine artwork
Making you the virtuoso of my heart

Through the long night
The breeze of the wind
All of the stars above
Holds a lot of memories

Steep mountains around
Beautiful scenery of aurora
Flashing beams from meteors
How beautiful is your love

The melting woods from fire
Temperature of the bodies
Oh, I feel it in your veins
I don't want it to last

Having our own space and time
Where we have our own world
Where our own star meets
Where we make our own constellation

We have our own celestial sphere
With our own meaningful patterns
Patterns that represents our love
Our perfectly imperfect love

We are the unknown planet
Not yet ready to be explored by people
Your world knocked down my planet
Thus your planet becomes my galaxy

Why do we need to wear this mask?
Do we need to hide our endearment?
Until when we will be a secret?
I want our unknown love to be known

Keeping away our happiness from them
And letting sadness keep us far away
We are imprisoned in our own prison
And killing ourselves with our own hands

He fell into a wide, deep abyss
With nothing but darkness with him
Looking for a little light to show up
Grieving, seeking for a little happiness

His mind was full of thoughts
Will the light shine again upon him?
Will he ever reach the skies again?
Or he'll be there and won't comeback again