The silence is deafening,
The pain is numbing.
My body, it's bruising,
My blood, it's crusting.

The pain, i endure it everyday,
Try as i may, the feeling just wont go away.
To put on a smile, telling everyone i'm okay,
To hide the truth, to hide my turmoil from being on on display.

And yet from the ledge i peer down below,
Pondering, if my end will be fast or slow.
Without a care left in the world i leaped, i took flight
And as i landed, the world faded from my sight.

But i still endure the pain everyday,
For what i have done, i had a price to pay.
For i was once in colour, now everything is gray,
To forever suffer, never to find my way.

Have you felt so heartbroken,
Wishing you were omnipotent.
Do you sometimes feel worthless,
Your future seems uncertain.
Weak and hopeless,
Unwanted and useless.
Forgotten and placed aside,
Left alone outside.
Everything so surreal,
No longer appeal.
Love was desirable,
Like an amazing miracle.
I thought I was responsible,
Thinking this was bearable.
But I was definitely incapable.
I was so terrible,
I thought this relationship was durable
But in reality, was just vulnerable.
I thought this pain was repairable
The end was inevitable,
My predictions were simply remarkable,
As it ended up really horrible.

Here I am. Again.
It's the time when I have to make the hardest choice of my life.
My heart racing.
My mind lost.

My imagination was the only tool to help me see what's coming
All I could do is imagine.
What would happen if I made a wrong choice.  

I don't get it why.
It hurts to see you like that
Suffering the same way as I do
And crying and weeping for me

The last thing I ever want to do is to hurt you.
I just wished you thought from my view
You're not the only one suffering.  
You're not the only one depressed.
I am too.

I was the paper crane that you made. What once kept your interest. You thought that I was beautiful, a work of art.

But now you've disposed me like all the other crap that's useless to you now.

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