The empty space within
you will never disappear while
you sit among the stars
and count every single one of
them.

I asked you about your secrets
so you threw over my head all
the black pages of all
those books you've once painted with anger
in those dark old
days
so i asked why & why black
and you said because that's
how you felt
in your insides
so i grabbed your hand
and put it over my chest
& i said
that's ok to feel black
sometimes
i've felt & been like this
my whole life
i do not wish i would have been lilac,
or grey, or blue
that's ok to feel like a
black hole
sometimes
because sometimes
people can throw things
back at you
but they will just simply
be swallowed up and
forever forgotten,
and you
will never be touched
by them
again.

Once I met the moon
she used to be so reckless
but still bright & perfectly flawed
i don't know if she will ever
know about it
but i fell in love with her
in the very first moment
i lied my eyes upon
her shiny pale skin
i asked how she was doing
and she locked herself in the bathroom
i punched walls
ripped myself apart
cried
until there was no more tear
left within
and it seemed forever
until she got out
only to ask me
why i was like that
i'm so sorry, little moon
i can't be better & won't
ever
be the perfect
partner
because when you
destroy yourself
little by little
i die inside
and those dead pieces
come to haunt me at night
can't you just stop with the hurting?
i can't stand these ghosts anymore
i loved you, little moon
i still do
but i can't love the destruction
you drag yourself into
because once you're done with it
there will be none of me
left
to hold you tight
and say that you
still shine bright
like you used to.

Holding hands in the cold weather,
Kissing in the rain,
Cuddling through the storm,
These are the little things I live for.

Wind running through my hair,
While running around in circles,
Stopping to breathe,
These are the little things I live for.

Paint gathering in my nails,
Ink bleeding through my fingerprints,
Finding paint on my clothes,
These are the little things I live for.

Silence when everybody's talking,
Peace when everything's out of place,
Calmness when everyone's ranting,
These are the little things I live for.

The way you look into my eyes,
The way you spin me around,
The way you hold me tight,
These are the things I live for.

These are the things I live for,
These are the things I will never forget.