I knew this was coming
I knew one day I would have to face my fear
A little girl
No more than six
She is the one who told
I didn’t have as much courage at the age of twelve
She picked you out of a line of people
She let them know what you’d done
How you had asked
‘Are you a boy or a girl?’
And
‘Could I be your friend?’
You only targeted the lonely
That was your M.O
I was always alone
I must have been an easy target
You were so nice
They had been looking for a man
While you hid in the shadows
I cried when I heard they had caught you
Now I have been asked to testify
I will if only to save more from the same
I had nightmares
You haunted me more than anyone else
I was terrified as a kid
Now I’m all grown up
I have the chance to tell others about you
I hope you rot
My parents say I shouldn’t hate
Hate is a strong word
But you took my childhood
Like him you are a monster in my eyes
In many others you are a monster
We will never be scared
Of you
Of your threats
Never again

It's one of those days
The days I stand and my knees give out
The days I can't breathe
When I feel that I have no purpose
I give up
I fall even further
But I cannot see the reason to keep on
To pretend everything is fine
A fake smile
People I don't want to speak to
They talk and talk
I wish I could lay down
To finally rest
But I cannot for I am weak
I am tired and broken
Under a spell I can't release
My memory fades
Eventually I will fade to nothing
One day maybe not today or tomorrow
I will be gone and finally
Finally I will be at rest
Just not on days like this