There are some days
I think to myself
I am beautiful

But most days I can't
Sometimes I catch
Just a glimpse

In the mirror is the girl
She is the one
I wish I could be always

She is graceful
She is beautiful
She is everything I want to be

I cannot look again
If I do I won't see her
I will only see me

It's disappointing
I can only see her
Just the single time

These days I don't
I no longer see her
I am no longer beautiful

There on the wind
Is that a bird or just an image
Am I dreaming of something
Is anything real here

The woods by my house
They sway in the breeze
Picturesque in this dream
They shake their leaves as they die

The clouds are drifting
They are white on this gray background
Fluffy but wet as they go
They shake and they cry for the Earth

Is anything here real
It all looks like a dream to me
The birds are flying past
The wind blows across my face

The angels are falling
They burn like Icarus
Falling from above
The building below
It looks like it will collapse
My eyes full of tears
The start of this sacred week
Begins with the flames of a fire
It takes out an important symbol
But things are saved and stored
The angels though they've fallen
Still guard what they've guarded for years
Though in doing so they were burned
Still here I sit waiting for better news
Tears finally falling

I don't understand
Of course that means they'll be angry
God forbid I don't comprehend
They complain about reading
The simple little chapter
We get assigned small
These little things
What have they been taught
Never told it is necessary
To be able to read
Without complaint
I don't understand
This school doesn't know how to do it?
Are things really that different?
No, they're my age
Why then?
Why can they not do this?

Glittering snow
Freezing colds
The front moves in
The wind chill hits negative
Frostbite is likely
Power goes out

"It's freezing"

But I can't help it
I admire the beauty
It comes every winter
However I hate what it brings
The cold and sleepless nights and
Glittering snow

I don't know what I'm going to say
I can understand what happened
I comprehend
I just don't have any tears left
Another of us is gone
He fought his battle
Though he lost he was brave
Courageous, wonderful, and kind
I don't know what to say to the people
The people who loved him the most
My voice can only reach so far
Sometimes it falls on deaf ears
I understand it hurts
There's pain, fear, and anger
I wish there was something I could give
To free them from this
There is nothing except to be there
Hold them when they cry
Make sure they take care of themselves
I don't know...

I'm slowly realising that I am falling apart
Whether it is piece by piece
Or all together
I know I have miles to go
To progress and choose my path I want
However I am tired
I want to stop
At the same time I want to keep going
So here I am yet again
Writing out my feelings
Trying to ignore my hurt
While this doesn't always work
I hope it does this time around
Enlisted and hoping for a chance
To prove myself and take a breath
I hope that I am what everyone's looking for
So here I go