I am hopeful.
The flowers are calling my name.

I am not yet ready.
To be destroyed by my own flame.

appear to me
in your truest form.

for i am present
in your delicate
presence.

scarred.
traumatized.
and destroyed.

and i never have
seen anyone as beautiful
as you.

Take my despair,
I want it not.


For I have learned
to live one day at a time.


For I have learned
to live without expectations.


So take my despair,
I want it not.


For I have finally learned
that nothing stays the same
forever.


For I have finally learned
that nothing is more powerful
than hope.


So take my despair,
I want it not.

i.


there are days
when my stars
align just for me.


my inner cosmos
telling me to write
about the pain.


my inner cosmos
telling me to expand
the universe within.


ii.


there are days
when my stars
collapse.


i am made of pure
darkness.


i am made of pure
anxiety—


terrified of not seeing
the sun again.


iii.


there are days
when my stars
rise—


like the infinite suns
that they are.


illuminating my being.

I am the moon,
and sometimes I shine full in my dark,
and sometimes I shine half in my dark,
and sometimes I am the darkness myself.

I live my life staring at the clock.
I always think that I don’t have much
time to be the person whom I want to be.

I’ve become a man of time and anxiety.
I can’t relax when I know that each second
is the youngest that I’ll ever be as it fades into nothing.

my heart goes out to
people who are abused
all their life.

i wish them peace.
i wish them hope.
i wish them love.

i wish them healing
in a life filled with sadness.