Give me a minute
To read the stars
Lamenting in their stories
Their laboured twinkling far and sparse

Give me this moment
To stumble and swoon
My branches reaching for
The faraway moon

Give me a while
To be one with the universe
Hear the colliding planets
As they spill their mournful verse

Give me some time
To plot my rightful place
Within my uncharted galaxy
And collapsing space...

Nothing but pain in my veins, wondering when will things ever be the same?
Struggling each night, just to keep myself from drowning in this horrible pool of pain
Drip drop, my heart slowly begins to stop and suddenly all I feel is shame
Now simultaneously my eyes begin to pour torrential rain

Endless agony and suppression, all because my pain has got me deep in oppression
Fighting with myself, just one more incident and dangggggggg it's right back to depression
"Pull yourself together" "Don't cry" "Stay strong"
My mind tries to convince that there's no possible way I could've right this wrong.

Swear the Only reason I like the rain is because I nicely matches my pain
All the joy it brings to watch my tears slowly travel down the drain
Whose idea was it anyway to think to ever hurt someone else all for selfish gain?
Well 'Mr. Popular' I hope you enjoy your notoriously self earned fame

Seriously was my distress, just a part of your hilarious test?
Knew I should've preserved myself,
Just knew I should've invest much less.
I could've saved myself a long time ago
Instead I was too caught up in trying to convince myself that it really wasn't ******>If you want to you'd go, but you'd hurt me deeply and that you know

The purpose of exactly which pain you cause me was never a real mystery
Because between you and me, we both know what was the real curiosity...
It was me thinking that my despondency, would ever yield the response I really wanted to see.

Endless trials and tribulations,
man this stress really puts me in desperate need of defibrillation
But I'm definitely thankful to God for this oh, so sweet revelation.
Absolutely nothing but pain in my veins
Thinking now just maybe things don't ever have to be the same
Satisfied in knowing all my hurt was not in vain
Not because I wished you death or horrible pain
But because my betters days arrived and now I...
I am proud to say that I now smile victoriously through the rain.

- (jrew)

Candles in the sun, blowing in the wind
Working tirelessly, battling, all to strive in this life full of sin
But just when will we realize that this painful game wasn't designed for us to win?
The intention was not for us to last forever but to create moments that do
Legacies that withheld the barriers of time
Pangs of love so sincere, it's something many die trying to find
Hoping that through it all we've been nothing but kind
Over rimed with joy just looking back at it
Realizing that, yes indeed it was all mine

You see we've all had the hope that we'd find true love one day
But exactly just what are we to do
When we've already encountered our true love
Messed it up and now we're beyond *******?
Love em' then leave em'
Who wants to play that game?
I would've rather love and lost
Than to be full with regret so immense all I can do is bury my head in shame

Honestly, at the end of it all
When all this is over what are you going to do,
To ensure that you're not the loneliest guy, wondering why
You never loved them back the way that they loved you?
Cause I've loved and I've lost
Now there's nothing left for me to do
As I stare at this brightly blazing candle
I think of all the things I could've done with you
All in attempts to prove
that my love to you was nothing but true!
-(jrew)

When did it visit me?
I really don't know when.
It came out of nowhere,
I feel that it's a sin.

Naked in the shower,
washing up clean.
I felt this little lump,
scared and unforeseen.

Feeling all alone,
I looked up to the sky.
Fingers locked together,
I asked the Lord, "Why?"

Now, I lay in silence,
while the tumor grows inside.
Putting up these walls,
all I do is cry.

Months have gone by,
with the chemo and the draws.
The sickness took my *******,
now that's the final straw.

It's been six months now,
I struggled for my life.
I beat the **** cancer.
I AM HAPPY, I WILL SURVIVE!!