maybe it was a fit of nostalgia

or the way the light reflected off the glass

but I swore in passing

I saw you

and for a split second

my heart stopped

whether out of fear or joy

I cannot say

however

at second glance

it was a stranger

so perhaps it was you after all

It doesn’t happen all at once
it happens slowly
like a flood
water rising cautiously
a quiet rebellion
spilling over enemy lines with a vengeance
minute by minute, you feel it
the gravitational pull on your body
moving you further and further apart
your mother says that you will
find your way back to him,
but you are not so sure
it does not happen all at once
it happens like the
continents drifting apart
a few centimeters per year
it happens so slowly
you can’t even see it
until it is too late
until the love waltzing in the ball
room of your chest goes quiet
and everyone stops dancing
he grabs your hand and asks you
to go someplace quiet
you don’t go with him
you stay silent
your heart is a still drum
he takes your pulse with his teeth
tells you he doesn’t
understand
how you could change your mind
so suddenly
it doesn’t happen all at once
remember that, even when he
tries to convince you that things
were fine the day before
tell him that the earth is moving
microscopic distances as you speak
that neither of you are in the same
place that you were
yesterday.

There is no room for pacifists
In this world;
It's a militant's Paradise.

Surround your heart with steel bars and barbed wire;
And you shall not be pained with the proper attire.

But if you find true love and let it fade;
Sorrow will pain't it's shade.

Alienate your heart from all and it shall never break;
Let it love, but if it's lost it shall forever ache.

But keep the heart from finding love and lonesomeness prevails;
For if you close yourself to all your soul shall never sail.

Entomb your heart in the walls of stone and not let it be touched;
Then never have the feeling that we all long for so much.

Stop hiding.
Abiding.
You are not that person
In the back of your head
Telling you not to share,
not to care
YOU ARE NOT A ROBOT!
Don't hold yourself back
Ever
Because of the failures of
Others
Outsiders
Today is a new day
I acknowledge you
Trying.