fate is playing a trick on me again
it made us meet a number of times
and gave me opportunities repeatedly
but regardless of what it does or what i do
if your heart is not giving me a chance
then it is all a game i can never win
i can simply suffer the loses
and experience the pain
over and over... and again

saw you the first time where planes depart
from my dreams this girl stepped out
thinking of introducing myself
i wasted time and let the chance flew by
if it's destiny, another chance will surely come by

a month after where people celebrate
as to my surprise, you were there playing dice
approached a table of fifteen or so
but a friend stopped to chat for a while
before i knew it, my opportunity has passed me by
this is simple coincidence and that is how i should see it

weeks passed by where i work
while walking thru an aisle, something caught my eye
you were nearer than i thought
composing messages nervously
my heart leaps with joy on your every reply
this could be destiny for all i know

weekends passed and as my leaving date nears
i gathered up courage and we talked for a while
continued to send message
even if i get desert rain replies
not giving up due to my sincere desire
and trusting destiny is on my side

days passed as i continued to reach out
every minute looking forward for a reply
agonizing mornings continues to welcome me
and silence are lullabies to my sleepless nights
as your message starts to cease
i then realized, that no message is also a reply

as my mind continues to wander
amidst all these events, the question remains
is it destiny for us?
or these are mere coincidences?
after much thinking, i finally understand
the answer is in your hand

i placed a chocolate on your desk
with a short note saying
happy valentines
and have a great week

i want to do something thoughtful
for an amazing girl like you
i hope you'll get my intent
and find this gesture simply nice

now my mind is like a troubled sea
anxiously waiting if you'll respond
afraid and nervous on what you'll say
worried if this move could end it all

why do you keep doing this to yourself?
you're thinking of sending a message again
and then hoping for a warm reply
while knowing  you'll get a cold response

why do you continue to reach out?
this has happened over and over
you always end up cursing the night
and simply coasting past the day

why do you place her above you?
recall what plane stewardess always says
put on your mask first before others
shouldn't it apply for all cases

why are you so stubborn?
though she had not told you to stop
isn't it enough that she doesn't care
or that she barely responds

why do you keep insisting?
to send a message one more time
you've done this again and again
and the results never change

why don't you come back to reality and see?
that it's time to let this feelings go
stop making made up excuses
on the way she responds to you

why are you day dreaming of her smile?
her bright eyes and cute nose
and everything nice
please stop it for your sake!

why am i doing this?
i'm your logical head
pleading my case and asking you not to forget
the pain of one message sent

as i lie down in the silence of the night
a thought flashed in my mind
it reminded me of something about you
these happens without notice
and makes me remember how we were
you gave me love compared to no other
but i turned it away and left you
i thought i did what was best for us
but how come i am living miserably
while enjoying the memories
of the times we used to be