I can't help but to fall for you
I can't stand not seeing you,
Even for a second
I do know that it is getting unhealthy
But never do I know you will react the way you are

I need to move on
I need to forget you
I need to erase every memory of you
I do know all of those
But never do I know I have to do that this fast

So what I need—
What I do really need to forget you—
Is to forget myself itself.

You don't care about how my feeling is
You just want to hear whether your purpose's concealed

What is inside that heart I used to know?
What happened to your beautiful mind?
Why would you knife me?

There is this girl
The girl who is genius as hell
The girl who is humble
The girl who thinks low about herself
The girl who forgets how it feels to fall

There is this boy
The boy who is way too genius
The boy who is humble
The boy who thinks low about himself in front of her
The boy who forbids himself from falling

There are this two persons
Two persons who hide behind their bricked walls
Two persons who put their ego up as defense,
Defense from falling
Falling deeper, deeper, and deeper
Into each other.

My whole life,
I've been running,
I've been hiding,
I've been screaming,
Trying so hard to conceal my emotions

But with you by my side,
I can't do that anymore
All I can do is stop.

Why would you come to leave?
Why would you come to overturn everything that I've ever believed in?
Why would you come to forget?
Why would you come to eradicate?

How could you be such an **** to me?

And then I realize the answer:
Because I don't  m a t t e r .

There is this boy
The boy whom you're always telling your stories to
The boy who listens to you always
The boy whom you don't actually know

There is this boy
The boy who is my best friend's older brother
The boy who keeps telling her sister about what his best friend said
The boy who is actually the same person that you know

But you don't know that fact

Why?

Because you're too blinded
To see that boy running in circles
Just to make sure that you and him are okay

You don't like me, I get that
You don't wanna stand by me, I get that
You don't love me, I get that too
I totally get everything you're doing to me

But you're pretending not to know me,
there is where I lose my mind.