jas - Hello Poetry

jas Jun 2018

numb

forget me
all the times we had
what i thought was love
was a joke waiting to be told
laughed by your own
tore away at my soul

hello drugs
how you've been good to me
left my body numb
I've never been more free
... cant you see

you were the drug i always needed
to let go of the world
all of these tears gone to waste
if i could choose my life
so easy to copy and paste

a different me
another path that could lead
to happiness
if only
if only it wasn't just a dream

im numb

jas Jun 2018

reason

your the reason i drink
im too tired to think
don't wanna believe
this was all make believe
merely a dream
and i was blinded by love
just couldn't see
you were never the one for me

jas Jun 2018

goodbye

no longer alive
your out of my mind
i have no tears left to cry
this is me saying goodbye

goodbye and farewell

to all this pain
that I've endured
ill never be the same
never look back
never a glance

goodbye to the past that can kiss my ***

jas Jun 2018

s\o to you.. *explicit*

im sorry...

pour a shot
shoot me in the f*kn head
this **** is explicit
im on my knees at the edge of my bed
just prayin
lord save me
from all the sorrow
all the tears
i spent my whole life living in fear

broken hearted
torn apart
limb by mfn limb
if love is a sin
send my *** to hell
every task i try turns to dust and i fckn fail
i keep asking for signs like my *** aint blind
never ever did i learn to read braille

this is the end of the beginning

im sorry..

to put 100% effort into all that was worth it
the future
love doesn't last unless its lust
if just for a moment
my body is just like a catacomb
tore my heart right out of my chest
and now im in debt
for the rest ..of my mfn life
enough is enough
im signing over my got **** rights
of this life

#sorry #for #nothing #explicit

jas Jun 2018

heartbro/en

poured my heart into a black hole
once i entered the unknown
as i scream for the taste of blood on my lips
to feel once more , a pinch of bliss

fell into lust, chasing love
ice in my veins
my body is numb
no longer a soul exists

fading into the distance
no longer fighting resistance
the end is near i feel it

i have a disease.. im broken.

*******

#sad #story #depressed #heart #broken #love #lust #fate #dream #unreal

jas May 2018

high’

hot summer days
with you by my side
as we sit on the beach
and watch the high tides
cold brew in one hand
yours in the other
enjoying the orange pinkish colour
of the sky

you are my high
and i’m never coming down
i’m wrapped around your finger
going round and round

love in the air
and my vision is clear
as i look to the sky
and say a little prayer

you are my high
and i’ll never be sober
i never want this feeling to be over
as the sun kisses
forever and ever

i’m in love with the beach boys they inspire me

#beach #boys #high #happy #peace #sun #tan #love

jas May 2018

worth it

tell me ,
am i worth it?
did i do everything to deserve this
the sun it shines so bright on your skin
while the waves speak to me
saying “this is it”
i’ve found bliss
as i dig my toes into the sand
appreciating all i have
i would never change a thing
that helped me get right to this day

it was worth it