it's a mistake
a mistake I'll always pay
slowly
deeply
surely
it'll sink into me
and it'll stop
then it's all over
they will forget about it
but i won't
imbedded in me forever
it's now part of me
it can't be undone
leave but it sinks into you too.

(s.a)

Even after all this time
The Sun never said to the Earth
“ You owe me“
Look what happens
With a love like that
It lights up the whole world

I’m trying to convince my friends that I don’t like you anymore and that I only think of you as a brother.
But am I trying to convince them or myself?
I close my eyes and see your ridiculous smile
I see you in the faces of my school mates
I see you everywhere
My heart aches every time I think of you
Is this love?
Probably not
Love don’t exist
I see the proof is my friends heartbreak and my parents fights
But how do you manage to make me feel like this
Get out of my head you’re driving me crazy
Stop it
You’re torturing my brain
This is an endless torture
You’re a personal devil sent straight from the fires of hell to torture me
To make my heart crumble as I listen to you talking about another girl
Feel my heart break into a million pieces and crumble into ashes as I see you with another girl
This is against everything that I stand for
I refuse to let this get to me
I will be immune to you
I will be immune to everyone else
I will be heartless

(s.a.)

Taigu Ryokan
(1758-1831)

Have You Forgotten Me
have you forgotten me
or lost the path here?
i wait for you
all day, every day
but you do not appear.

“This Bitter Language

I know your streets, sweet city,

I know the demons and angels that flock

and roost in your boughs like birds.

I know you, river, as if you flowed

through my heart.

I am your warrior daughter.

There are letters made of your body

as a fountain is made of water.

There are languages

of which you are the blueprint

and as we speak them

the city rises.”


― Elka Cloke

Pretty flowers
Little kids
Wasting hours
In the fields
(s.a.)