How did some people deserve my love when I can't even be reciprocated by half of what I've done?

Unconditional love you say? Abuse I call it. Taken for granted, too comfortable to notice. I know what I deserve, even if you say I just have to read you better, and read between the lines, but why can't you just ******* say what you have to say, and do what you have to ******* do? What are you so afraid and hesitant about?

Stop wasting time, stop prolonging the ******* and make a decision. Stick by it, live by it.

I'm not always expecting for reciprocation, but a little appreciation and acknowledgement surely would help me feel better doing all of these things.

You just can't always be on the receiving end of things, you also have to give. Treat others how you want to be treated. Respect if you want to be respected. It's a system that you're not exempt from. Stop your foolish double standards and hypocrisy.

I tried to understand your logic and see everything in your perspective, but I still can't comprehend. You've turned me into something I hated. You've pushed me away far enough to not see your relevance in my life anymore.

How does everytime
You write
I feel fright
Your words
Always circling in my mind

I hate
That my heart is at stake
But again,
I couldn't repent

My invested feelings for years
Built up fears
Not reaching you
Crushes me within

Are we the same?
Do you also feel that?
In my life you came
So you made me pain

People always tell you to "face your fears"

And everyday that our hands collide,
You hug me close to your chest so tight I can smell nothing but your expensive cologne I got you for Christmas,
Trusting you with my laughs,
My honesty,
My love.

It's the biggest thing I'm scared of because loving  you is my greatest fear. How do you know you are driving off the cliff on a foggy morning? You fall.

And now I feel like I'm falling so abruptly, and I won't be able to get up.

Cause when you finally break my heart I won't even have enough heart to tell myself " i   T  o  l d    Y  o   U  S   O "

I don't know if you care enough to see,
A loving person whom you could be.

Hear the heart of this young man's plea
You may think he's tied you down, when in fact he's set you free.
Listen, listen from up above the tree

*Are you a fool to set this man to the sea?