love/ an intense feeling of deep affection

2. lust/ to have a strong or excessive craving

I take these two words into play
when my brain thinks of your name

I feel deeply connected to you
its so insane

but I sometimes crave you
like a summer day

so I ask myself
is this love or lust?

but one day
as we lay

I will know if this is love or lust

i was once told that i was never going to be good enough for love. that i spend too much of my time tending to the needs for people whom i loved, and i will never have that in return. Always planting forests for people who only burn them down. That i am type of girl that has only ever known ashamed love. A love that is always hidden behind closed bedroom doors and smothered under soft cotton sheets. The kind of love that is not love, never love, but lust. the word itself has been slipped through lips glossed with poison, but has only left me weak and ill.

I don't know what it means
when all you can write about
is the man of your dreams

I don't know what it means
to feel cared about in beautiful
ways like he seems to

I don't know what it means
to have a guy that would to anything
to see the bright smile appear again

I don't know what it means
to have a guy care about you
the way he makes carrying seem.

but what I do know is if its
something that is true
I want you and only you
to show me what it means.

I know why
I want to spend
the rest of my life
with you

its the night conversations
filled with our hearts
that mean something
that keeps me alive.

its the smile in your eyes
I want to see each night
but I can't
because im so far away

but distance won't stop me
you capture the most
beautiful pictures
of yourself at
the greatest of moments.

you're feeling a little sad
and I refuse to get mad
because you're human
and humans have feelings

but if I find out
that someone's making
you sad
things won't be
as pretty

I really love you
and I just want
you to have
happiness
because
happiness is key.

nothing but positive
is in my life to stay
im tired of living
in such a negative way

today is the day
that I can declare
change to the way
I see the way of life.

life itsself is
such a beautiful place
it's filled with yellow Rays
and pink figmented flowers

and at the end of the days
as the nights start to lay
the pretty colors in the sky
say hi, just for a little while.

and finally
im tired of the nasty ways
no more bad days
I declare for myself.

boy, I keep falling for you.
first it was the words you spoke
you could make saying
"I hate you"
seem so beautiful to me

next it was the way you would say
"I love you"
I love that you're not original
you say I heart you
it's so beautiful

now it's the way you make me feel
and every conversation
is just so real
and I love you.
or as you would say
I heart you bb boo

hey lover
please stay away
I beg you with tears in my eyes
there are ghost in the walls
and when they find the soul
they actually want
they will take you over
and I know they're searching for you
darling, this is hard for me
but please don't come around
to this ghost town anymore.
-H.M.